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I dunno how you found this, but alas, here you are. So enjoy the frightening fruits of my troubled little brain.
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wSaturday, January 21, 2006 |
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feeling: awake
listening to: nothing
I am annoyingly bored and completely awake. And still trying to decide if I'm willing to drag myself out of bed before 10 in the morning, 6ish hours from now, for the sake of going to Columbus with my parents and accompanying them to, of all things, an antique show. Plus sides for me: I could return the fludgy DVD I bought there last month (if it's not too late already), I'd get to eat out, and I could go to pretty much any location in town I might desire to go. And there are quite a few of those in Columbus. AND there's a kitty I'm sorta fond of up there too. >> << Downsides: sleeping for quite likely less than 4 hours for 2 nights in a row, and spending most of the day at an antique show. Which is my father's kind of thing... NOT mine.
I don't wanna go. But I wanna go. >_> Darn it...
Oh, gah. I suppose I'll be staying home. Don't feel at all like being stuck in a sprawling antique show all afternoon. I remember when I went with the folks to that antique mall in Lancaster... wandered around that place for over 2 hours, and I was stir-crazy by the time we walked out. But even better, we only left because mom was getting uncomfortably hungry... so after a break for lunch, we went BACK to the antique mall to finish exploring the last 2 floors. *shudder* Have felt no desire to see the inside of another antique show/store since.
Sorry, but after being dragged to several lifetimes' worth of antique shows/stores throughout my childhood and young adult years, I have developed a degree of aversion to the things. >> Mind you, I can handle short periods of poking through those places looking for specific little cool things - antique Snoopy memorabilia, for instance - but NOT wandering through for hours and hours while the parentals take a good close look at EVERY. SINGLE. THING.
This has probably been one of the weirdest rants I've ever come up with.
Oh well, at least my decision's made. No dusty smelly old junk for me! Muhahahahaaa!
...I'm gonna regret that decision. I know it. *grumble*
ANYWAY.
It's been about half an hour since I started this thing (Iron Chef was distracting ¬.¬), and I'm finally feeling slightly drowsy. But not sleepy. So I must not be done here yet. >>
Hmm... so for the past few months or so now, I've had this urge to tinker around with sort of a new artistic... style, or whatever one might call it. Guess you could say I just had some interesting new inspirations. But not really. >>; Not even sure what to call it... but it didn't matter, because any attempt I've made at an artistic-type project for the past several months, if not a year or more, has failed miserably before it even began. My creative side flew the coop long ago. So that's been sorta discouraging, having these new ideas but lacking the skill to bring them to life. However, I finally found an online project of sorts that features, among other things, artwork in that VERY style that I have been seeing through my mind's eye and longing to experiment with. Some of the subject matter is even the same as I've pictured. Sooooo for several days now I've been poking through these sites looking at the very artwork that I've been wishing I could create, and being completely floored by the perfect techniques with which the artist managed to execute it. So yeah... it's nice to be able to look at large collections of this artwork, if I couldn't have produced it myself. Yet also kind of depressing because I'm not that artist. >>
Yes, I'm rambling and probably making no sense. Told you I was half-tired. Just had some mild deja-vu too, which is interesting...
Anyway, I'm done babbling now. Gonna see if I can find something to watch until I'm tired enough to sleep.
[edit: dude, I totally posted this on my translations blog before realizing I was an idiot and moving it here. *dies* I'm more tired than I thought...]
[edit 2: ooook, it's the next day, parents never went anywhere, and I STILL only slept for 4 hours. stupid life. >>]
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 1/21/2006 04:29:00 AM
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wTuesday, January 10, 2006 |
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feeling: ...
listening to: HIM - Play Dead
Ooohhhhh. Now I get it.
Actually, no I don't. That would be the problem. I'm totally and utterly confused! Yay! So what else is new?
It's kinda sad, though, how long it takes me to realize just how confused I am. Not that I'm not confused about something or other all the time, but sometimes more than others, and all that. It's funny - I've been like this for ages already and it just hit me not long ago that I've been so restless and weird lately primarily because I just have no idea what's up with me anymore.
Explains a lot, really. In the brain of a walking contradiction like me, that is. >>
I'm not crying for attention or anything here, by the way. Cause honestly, who isn't confused about something or everything? Doesn't make me special. Just another angsty face.
Hah, this post sucked.
Anyway... something in this room is making a weird humming sound which is slightly disconcerting... suppose I should try to find out what that is before I go to bed...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 1/10/2006 03:39:00 AM
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wSunday, January 08, 2006 |
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feeling: wiped
listening to: Xena OST vol. 1 - The Oracle
Now for a bunch of themed ranting...
Fill in the blank: "I've been in a very _____ mood lately"
So. I've been in a very restless kinda mood lately. Pretty sure I can blame that on the time of the year. The insanely busy December finally ends, and then for a week or two I suddenly find myself looking around for stuff I should be doing, and wondering why I can never find it. Then I get all twitchy and excited for Ohayocon, then Ohayocon ends and for the next week or two I wish it were still happening... been the same for 3 or 4 years now. So now that Ohayocon '06 has come to an end, I've probably got a good couple weeks of restless wall-pinging to go until I settle down again.
Moving on, I've also been in a very hardcore-nutball (the fandom term for "obsessed Xena fan") mood lately. Guess that happens every year when I receive the annual Christmas gift of a Xena DVD box set. This time it was season 4... and I'm starting to wonder if I'll really be able to hold out for another 2 years to get the final 2 seasons. >>; *gives eBay glassy-eyed looks* Meanwhile, I've finished watching the new box and have broken out my soundtrack collection. 5 out of 6 volumes. Still wondering if I should spring for volume 3... it was just the soundtrack to one episode, which I own, and I can't remember if it had any other random stuff thrown in or or not...
Also, though, I finally found the former Poteidaia Scroll (now The Daily Scroll), a major Xena fan forum, after being away from it for 3 or 4 years. All the same people seem to be there. Thought about re-joining, but then that would defeat the purpose for my leaving in the first place... so probably not. I kinda miss it though.
Anyway... I've also been in a very kitty-ish mood lately. Not that I didn't love cats before, but I mean... pointing and squeeing every time a cat appears on TV or in front of me, digging out my old cat reference books just to fawn over the photos, and... weirdest of all... recently I really want a kitten. I mean, a lot of women around my age start wanting children, right? Screw that. I want kittens. >.> Yes, I'm bizarre. I swear I'm gonna turn out to be our next family Cat Lady... after poor aunt Nellie passes on, that is. But I'll be more insane than her. >> <<
Not sure at all where that mood is coming from. Maybe I'm just still a little raw from losing Misty, I dunno. It's been several months, and I try not to think about it... not like I'm the only one who ever lost a loved pet, even one who was there for 15 years and approximately 2/3 of my life... but eh, that's me for ya. I pick weird things to be eccentric about. As the majority of this post would probably indicate.
I thought there was more I meant to add here, but can't think of it now... so oh well. That takes care of that. Guess I'll go post one final LJ entry and return to my Xena soundtracks, cat books, and zoning...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 1/08/2006 10:44:00 PM
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wMonday, January 02, 2006 |
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feeling: full
listening to: Janne Da Arc - I'm So Happy
Here's a survey thing, cause I was bored. [EDITED HOURS AFTER POSTING - one thing was left checked that shouldn't have been... no, I don't particularly care for Martha Stewart >.>]
Appearance
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (sometimes? *snort*)
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily. (I'm so pale I skip straight to burning)
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color. (would say yes, but I don't know what color I'd rather have it...)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (contacts... but yeah, same idea)
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (do cat calls by random guys on the streets of Mexico City count? though to be fair, they were probably aiming at my companion for that evening... :P)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had a child.
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job. (not one that pays in cash >>)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I always do my homework. (er, I did when I had it)
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (said yes because I was on the honor roll every year anyway... shut up, I'm a nerd)
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. (how is that embarrassing? :P)
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. (one did a few months ago, but I've never made a trend of it)
[x] I've peed from laughing. (I was a child once too >>)
[x] I've snorted while laughing. (I repeat... I'm a nerd :P)
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip/drop in public (not in public...)
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment. (anemia, but I don't count that)
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone. (nose yes, bone no)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend. (never been in a position to...)
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan. (sigh)
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (heck, I got lost in Richmond Dale as a kid >.>)
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator (I think I helped someone do that once in revenge against someone who'd just done it to us... or we were just bored >.>)
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car. (not counting the fender bender)
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play. (gradeschool and church plays...)
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights. (this is one of my travel dreams... sort of... WANNA SEEEEEE *pout*)
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken. (only in a pool)
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I'm a player, what can I say?
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. (if you could call it that)
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment. (nah, I got used to being left alone long ago)
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex. (hey, I dare you to deny that women look infinitely more pleasing to the eye than men >.>... well, most men XD)
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't (not to my recollection...)
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world. (well, maybe... maybe not... am I?)
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light. (...it was orange!)
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time, no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. (dude, I'm the master of that)
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. (oh, I have ALWAYS needed it :P)
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying. (except I avoid thinking about it, so it doesn't bother me)
[x] I hate funerals. (um... who likes them?)
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer pants and shirts, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic. (I don't think... do I...?)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
Random
[ ] I can sing well. (if 'well' is the operative word... >>)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs. (I TAKE PLEASURE IN KILLING BUGS. the little freaks invade my room year round...)
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. (I never really thought about it, but sure...)
[ ] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (I'm seriously considering starting to...)
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (only to myself >> I don't correct people unless asked to)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well. (haven't attempted it since high school)
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love. (er, I suppose one could look at it that way)
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. (hey, if no one else will >>)
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. (sure, the ones where only exams counted for grades)
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish. (>.> I'm leaving myself wide open here, I have a feeling...)
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails. (I QUIT, BABY! *pride*)
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names (average, I guess)
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 1/02/2006 07:01:00 PM
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