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feeling: stressed
listening to: Utena - Guui, Guuwa, Guuest
Remind me again why I decided to attend college? Someone?
Ok. Thursday, I declared my major: Japanese. Which of course is in the College of Arts and Sciences, Humanities Department. Well, the day after that was when I was supposed to schedule next fall's classes. I did that, thinking it'd be temporary until I got to talk to my new advisor about classes in my major and such. But before that I had to see someone about re-applying to the honors program in Arts and Sciences. Cause if I commit to graduating with honors, I won't have to do a senior thesis, which would greatly giddify me. Well, I find out from this honors counselor person on Tuesday that I do not have very strong standing to make it into the Arts and Sciences honors program, even though my cumulative GPA is 3.80. Because I haven't taken as many honors classes as they'd have liked me to, and because a lot of the ones I did, as well as ones that weren't honors because no honors version of them were offered, were not "strong" enough for whoever's in charge of admitting honors people or whatever. Basically, because scheduling/time conflicts and other stuff that wasn'y my fault kept me from taking more honors classes than I have up to now, I may not be given a second chance at honors, even if I go in with a 3.80 and sign a contract promising to take more honors classes in the future. Aaarrrrrrgg. I really don't want to do a thesis. >_< Why do college students have to have majors anyway?? I was so much happier without one... it hasn't even been a WEEK, for Bob's sake.
People suck, too. People who walk in pairs or trios and take up the whole sidewalk and walk sloooooow because they're doing more jabbering than moving forward. People who think that just because you're under age 40, your opinions don't matter, nothing you say has any value, and you have no right to exist in this world. People who stand 5 feet away from where the line for drinks is, jabbering with others instead of paying attention, and then whine and throw a fit when people move in front of them in the line. People who yell over other people's heads to talk to their buddies halfway down the row in a 700-seating, pre-class-bell lecture hall, instead of sitting BESIDE them or walking over to them to converse at a non-ear-shattering volume. People who try to force you to be the way THEY are because the way YOU are isn't "normal". I could go on, but I won't.
BIG Utena Spoilers Ahead!! Turn back noooow!
I've been trying to figure out the meaning of Anthy Himemiya's glasses for some time now. It seems easy, especially if you've seen all 39 episodes of Utena, but there are those little things that contradict the big things and screw up the whole theory. Ok... so Anthy wears glasses at almost all times. As I recall, she only takes them off (in a pointed manner, anyway) at two points in the series: when she's visiting *koff* her brother Akio, and when she's preparing to leave Ohtori Academy in search of Utena. Other facts: Anthy is a witch, and her brother Akio, a.k.a. Lucifer, used to be Dios, the Rose Prince who saved princesses all over the world, but he couldn't save his sister because she wasn't a princess - she was a witch. So little sis Anthy trapped big bro Dios in a big castle to protect him from the hatred of the world when he became unable to save more princesses... and that caused all the hatred of the world to fly toward her in the form of a million swords. At that time, Anthy didn't have glasses. Then, Akio (when Dios became Akio, I don't know) decided he wanted to be the Rose Prince again, and he created Ohtori Academy and the dueling game in order to regain that lost power. And through some eeeevil diabolical manipulation he kept Anthy at the butt of those million swords of hatred so that he wouldn't have to take them on himself. He claimed Anthy was happy to do this for her brother, but... of course, he was delusional. Anywho. Every Saturday Anthy goes to visit her brother. He beckons her, she removes her glasses and walks over to him, fade to black. But when Anthy is away from her brother, she always wears the glasses. So this all leads to the simple theory: whereas normal glasses improve one's vision, Anthy's glasses inhibit hers. She sees LESS with her glasses on. I think they were something given to her by Akio so she would see only him when he wasn't there, and she could only take them off when he WAS there, because she didn't need them in order to see him then. This theory is supported in the last episode, when Anthy is preparing to leave the academy: she removes her glasses and purposefully steps through the gate to the outside world. She doesn't take her glasses because she doesn't need them anymore. She's no longer under Akio's control; the swords of hate ensnare her no longer. She's freeeeee. So, as Akio protests and orders her to stop and return to him, she says "Please go one playing make-believe Prince in this comfortable little coffin forever" and leaves. Ooooh, ouch. So yeah... all that supports the theory that her glasses are made to kind of block her view of the real, non-Akio world.
BUT!
Starting after the Black Rose arc, Utena and Anthy leave the South Dorm and move in with Headmaster Akio in his biiiiig, enormous, phallic symbol of a tower. So fitting. *snort* Well, Utena and Anthy now have this very cool bed that's actually two separate semicircle beds pushed together but not lined up right, so their pilloww are right in the center on each bed and their heads are side by side as they sleep even though they lay facing opposite directions. Hard to describe, but anyway... it becomes customary for them to talk to each other before they fall asleep. And at these times, Anthy does not wear her glasses. And Akio is nowhere around. That's one wrench in the works. The other I could be wrong about; it's in the curry episode, where Utena and Anthy's personalities are switched after a curry explosion. (gotta love filler eps) Anthy, in Utena's body, comments that it's so much easier to see without glasses. Yes, that always tripped me up, even after I realized that she wasn't referring to actual eyesight. After seeing the whole series, that ep doesn't seem to fit the theory. Sure, it's easier for her to see reality without the glasses, but while she's in Utena's body (without her glasses) she acts exactly the same as when she's in her own (with glasses). Furthermore, Utena, now in Anthy's body and thus wearing her glasses, is not affected by them in the slightest. Never once shows any signs of Akio manipulation. In fact, by this episode, no one was even aware that Akio EXISTED yet. Except Anthy, of course.
Sooo, now you see why I'm stuck. I had this nifty theory about Anthy's glasses, and it made perfect sense, but then those two scenes got in the way. Grrr.
Maybe next time I'll do a spoiler-blog containing my theories on Utena's fate at the end of the series. Or what Mikage and Mamiya were really all about. Or how Utena came to Ohtori Academy. Or how all of Ohtori Academy exists not in our reality, but only in Akio's reality. See, this anime makes no sense. That's why I love it. XD
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/16/2002 12:55:00 AM
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