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feeling: bored and impatient
listening to: Utena Musical - Mamotte Hoshii
Ragnarok Online, as it turns out, really was up and running in new Beta 2 style a few days ago. And I found out that I do in fact have to redownload the whole game again to get the new client. It's 20% completed, has been going for 4+ hours already, and says it will finish in about... 20 hours. >_< I want my T1 back... this download took an hour and a half with it... aaaaarrrrggg
Speaking of that, here's a message or two for Dumplin' in response to my last post... Dona Dona is that song from the Nanami cow episode, remember? XD It was stuck in my head most of yesterday and I kept singing the Joan Baez (American 60s) version of it to myself haha~ And if ya wanna see Braeden crawlin', drop by sometime when we're babysitting hehehe... we usually get him at least once a week thanks to my mom's persistence... he's usually here till mid-evening so your work shouldn't get toooo much in the way... I'll warn you on AIM or something >:D And finally... yes Ragnarok Online still works nyaaa XD... BUT if ya go to the client download part of the website, it has an option to download the components separately via zipped files, recommended for 56K modems (as is yours) or lower... I bet you could do that ^^ cause that way you can download it a bit at a time, disconnect between files, and not tie up the phone for 2 straight days heheh~
Aight, movin' on... tonight I watched a Powerpuff Girls episode called The Beat-Alls... the whole segment was one giant running gag spoofing the Beatles. It was possibly the funniest 12 minutes of American animation I've ever seen. XD I just about peed myself when "Moko Jono" appeared and started screeching like a dying buzzard... and then the one guy said "Oh, no..." *jaws ache*
I really hate it when I feel like drawing but have no ideas as to what to draw. I hate it even more when I start feeling that only after midnight. This is one of those nights. >< Bleh, um...
Utena Spoilers Ahead... back away, Willard ;)
Actually this is probably gonna end up more of a brainstorm session, cause I'm bored and had an idea or two, and cause I can't find any lined paper to brainstorm on. :P I'm not really worried about anyone stealing my ideas since no one reads this except Dumpling and occasionally Silfy and Willard... heh. So, umm. I was thinking about the ending lately (what else is new), and I still have a few questions I really wish someone knew answers to, and a few that I think would be interesting to attempt fanfic about. Ok, first off... on one of the later episodes, somewhere in the 30s, Utena and Anthy vow to each other that they'll have tea and laugh together 10 years down the road, and of course at that time, they're drinking tea and joking around about it being poisoned and stuff. Skipping forward a bit... in the last episode, when Utena first pries the Rose Gate open (I've been through that before, find it if you don't remember :P), at first we see only the inside of it: naked Anthy lying within, as in a coffin, but only total blackness surrounds her. And when she looks out through the now-ajar gate, she doesn't see anyone yet, but she hears Utena's voice calling. Child Utena's voice. Here's the dialog:
Utena: Himemiya... Himemiya...
Anthy: Who are you?
Utena: I came to save you.
Anthy: But you're a... (unspoken: you're a girl, or a child)
Utena: I came here to meet you. So don't be afraid of this world where we'll meet.
(little Utena's voice then becomes the "regular", grown, injured Utena's voice)
Utena: Himemiya... Himemiya... Himemiya...
Anthy: Utena-sama?
Utena: Himemiya... we finally meet...
That's the scene. So back to the theories: some people say that the promise to have tea and laugh together in 10 years was fulfilled in the ep I mentioned earlier, where the vow was made. Because this dialog with child Utena indicates that she made that promise, among others, to Anthy way back when she first saw Anthy. Which would mean that scene was really more like the two of them acting out a memory or... something... or promising to do it yet again in 10 more years, something along those lines. Anyway, that's one theory. Another is much more straightforward: that dialog with child Utena has little to do with it, and the episode where they made that promise really was the first time they made that promise, and just indicated that they intended to be friends for a long, long time. That's the one I tend to support more, because I really think the child Utena dialog scene was just sort of... well... like, when Utena first opened the Rose Gate, the Anthy she saw inside wasn't the Ohtori student named Anthy whom she'd known for so long, but was rather Anthy's true, spirit self - her eternal self. The part of her that Utena hadn't seen since the day Prince Dios saved her years ago. Which would explain why Utena says "We finally meet". Besides that, I don't really think Utena and Anthy could have made that promise as little kids, because... well, Anthy was sort of hanging upon a million sword blades at the time. Utena at that time didn't know the Anthy she would later meet at Ohtori Academy.
There. Now I know which of those two theories I support. I have an interesting way of brainstorming, ne? XP
Now, here's another thing relating to that "We finally meet" stuff. After the final duel, right before Anthy leaves Akio, she tells him that she's going to go find Utena and that when she does, they'll be meeting for the first time. Sorta throws a wrench into the works, huh? >_> Well, here's what I think she meant by that. Throughout the whole series, Utena became friends with the physical Anthy, the bodily representation of the real, eternal Anthy. Meanwhile, the real, eternal Anthy was somewhere behind the Rose Gate serving as a pincushion for the Million Swords of Hate. That rhymed. XD Anywho, In that end scene when Utena opens the Rose Gate, she's seeing the real, eternal Anthy for the first time, not counting when Dios showed her the vision of Anthy back when she was a lonely child mourning her parents' deaths. And after Utena saved Anthy, freed Akio's world from his manipulative control, and left the academy to recover from her sword wound, Anthy's real, eternal self at last reunited with her physical self, which explains how she had the free will and self-confidence to just walk away from Akio.
HEY!! I just made a brand new realization there! I'm so proud XDD
Anywaaaay... so, since now Anthy is really, truly herself for the first time since her impalement by the Million Swords, she's actually in a form that Utena has never known before. She's herself, body and spirit, no longer a witch, free from eternal pain, and free from her brother's control. That, I think, is what she means when she says she's off to meet Utena for the first time. :D
Now if only I could figure out the 'again' part of "Someday we'll shine again together", I'd be in business. ><;; But hey, I've made progress~
Sooo, what does all that have to do with my fanfic brainstorming, you ask? Well... I'm trying to figure out how much time passes between Utena's victory, Anthy's leaving the academy, and the two of them meeting again. The having tea and laughing together in 10 years promise could indicate that it takes Anthy 10 years to find Utena, but it could also just mean that they'll be friends for the next 10 years and will always be together, having tea and laughing, including that unforseen point 10 years off. Did that make sense? Not really. ¬_¬;;; I just mean that the "10 years from now" thing doesn't mean that they won't have tea together anytime over the next ten years, nor after that ten year mark. Just a "Let's always be friends who can have tea and laugh together like this" kinda proposition. I mean, when you're 14 like Utena, 10 years seems like a pretty long time.
Sooo, if I could figure out how much time passes between each of those 3 events from the last episode, I could aspire to write a fanfic based on Utena and Anthy's eventual reunion. And that single idea is what I've been working up to ALL this time. Slap me. XP
And now that I'm done with that for the time being, I'll move on to my other idea. Long ago I mentioned here that I created an Utena-verse version of an original character of mine who is an anime-ized me. She looks bloody cool, even though I haven't designed her uniform yet XD I also mentioned that I call her the Golden Rose, as is fitting of Utena duelists (Touga's the red rose, Saionji's the green rose, etc etc). She is most definitely, therefore, a Duelist, but not a Black Rose Duelist, cause her rose is gold, not black. So my decision now is whether to write her into the Student Council universe of the Akio/Apocalypse Saga universe. The latter would make more sense, because the Student Council is an established part of the anime and has some role in every episode, therefore it would be hard (and a bit dumb) to add a whole new character to the council, only for a storyline that would amount to no longer than a few episodes. But then again, they did that with Ruka... actually, I'm not sure he really counted as a council member, even though he did go to their meeting place with them once or twice. I really don't know at this point. He was an old acquaintance of Juri (a member) and Shiori, never mentioned before or after the 2 episodes he appeared in. Still, though... everyone who knows Utena is familiar with the Student Council, since they make up the first 13 episodes, which have been the only ones legally *cough* available for 5 years. I don't think I'm adventurous enough to try to screw with that kind of establishment. So, it'd be wiser to stick my chara into the less polished, less straightforward, more flexible Akio/Apocalypse saga, right? Right.
But, man... that saga was SO freakin' twisted and deep compared to the simple foundations of the Student Council arc... how the heck could I live up to that?? >o< Heh, you'd think I actually enjoyed a challenge...
Well, there. I think I'm done now. Made some decisions, created some theories, and divined a brand new realization. I think I earned the sleep I'm about to give myself.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 7/19/2002 01:55:00 AM
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