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feeling: like my arm's sore
listening to: Cowboy Bebop - PAPA Plastic
Just thought I'd post since I hardly ever do anymore. Yay! Shotgun blog! *square dances*
Before we get started, a small rant. Blogger changed formats again. I don't like this one! Gimme the old one back! >_<
So, just over 2 weeks remaining of summer now. Think that'll give me enough time to design and complete the pattern for an Elmo blanket for my nephew and his soon-to-be cousin (on his mom's side! chill! >:P), review approximately 150 kanji that summer break has yanked from my brain, and learn 13 new kanji? Heh, you'd think so... but don't forget, I suck.
Majorly looking forward to Ohayocon in January~ *glee* This time it will be held in a hotel that's a mere few minutes' bus ride from my dorm, as opposed to a 2.5-hour bus ride or a $25 taxi ride like it was this past January. That alone kicks so much butt. Pre-registration is also a little cheaper this time, and if we stay in my dorm instead of in the hotel (with its hefty $103 per room per night price), all the technicals of the con should be cheaper overall. Allowing more cash to be set aside for the dealers' room. >:3
Remember a couple weeks or whenever ago when I posted that poor ol' Sekiray seems to be nearing his final days? Well, the little smart alec is really screwing with my head now. He's still doing a lot of resting and acts like he can't hold up the weight of his fins, but he doesn't do the sinking-like-a-rock thing that he was doing before. Also, his color has been absolutely perfect lately - all nice and rich and dark - which doesn't seem typical of a fish knocking on heaven's door. And his appetite is huge as always... he'll still jump out of the water to grab his dinner. But another habit I've caught him in recently: sometimes when at rest, he drifts to a vertical nose-up position so it looks like he's sitting up on his tail... not exactly a normal thing. I recall not long ago a member of a betta forum I visit posted that her elderly betta was doing this... and a few weeks later the poor fish died. :\ So, not really sure what to think... but he doesn't have any signs of sickness, so all I can do is feed him and keep his tank clean. And consider myself fortunate to have known such a little stud.
On the stranger front... I have finally decided to give up and accept the fact that, over these past 6 months or so, I have in fact lost weight. I didn't want to believe the first 3 or 4 people who told me I looked smaller, maybe because I haven't even done anything to try to lose weight... and even when I did in the past, it didn't work. In junior high I lost quite a bit due to simple (yet prolonged) lack of appetite, then I went through high school and 2 or 3 years of college where I did nothing but steadily gain... despite 2 years on the track team, countless months spent dieting, and spending a couple hours a day walking just between classes during the college years. But the other day I discovered that I can fit into jeans 2 to 4 sizes smaller than I wore a year ago. Face the facts, I say. :P I think it has something to do with that stupid flu I had back in late March... took me at least a month to get my appetite back...
Whistle... what else...
Oh, hey, in 2 weeks I start my senior year at uni. That means I'll have 4 options for what to do starting from next summer:
1) Be a good girl, put out a resume shortly before graduation, and join the rest of the working world shortly after.
2) Stay in school and put in another year or so, then repeat the process of "now what?".
3) Become a graduate student, which would entail pretty much dedicating the rest of my life to becoming/being a fluent Japanese speaker.
4) Do none of the above, stay home and mooch off my parents for another year or two or ten, possibly with the occasional summer/part-time job thrown in.
Considering I've never had a real job before, #2 or #3 actually look like the wisest choices. They'd give me an extra year or two to do some working and build up a fund upon which to base... well, the rest of my life. But I don't know how much more college I (and my parents) can afford. And as soon as I graduate, the bills will start rolling in like so many little paper steamrollers. Little, vicious, indestrictible paper steamrollers. Laminated ones.
But, as I've done for the past few years, for now I say 'meh, major decisions can wait a few more months', and put it off until I get that big ol' slap in the face that tells me I put it off waaaay too long. On the other hand, if I can survive that, I can survive pretty much anything this fudged up world would ever throw my way.
Anyway...
To my dearest friends, if I have seemed especially quiet or short on things to say these past few days, I apologize. I say so because one or two of you (or both of you :P) have expressed concern for me, noting that I seem worried, sad, anxious, etc. But I'm being fully honest when I say I'm none of those - after much discussion with myself I've concluded that I'm just... well, preoccupied. But it's the good kind of preoccupied, I promise ^_^ *glomps all around* Dumplin'-chan and Ryu Ryu, I'm sooooo lucky to have you guys~
*end mush moment*
Well, that's about all I can think of. Off to bed.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/05/2003 03:39:00 AM
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