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wStuff You Don't Wanna Know But Are Reading Anyway |
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I dunno how you found this, but alas, here you are. So enjoy the frightening fruits of my troubled little brain.
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wMonday, September 26, 2005 |
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feeling: second wind... times four >.>
listening to: The TRAX - Rhapsody
Ok... so someone was looking out for me Sunday, and it wasn't as bad as I had projected. Dead tired I was, all day, after only sleeping for about an hour and then only fitfully napping in the afternoon... but the depression was replaced by... crankiness. Hey, to me that's improvement. And anyway, it quickly faded, and by late evening life went back to being about as decent as it can be given the circumstances.
Lots of factors kept the day from ultimate sucking. First, dad actually made stuffed french toast for breakfast. o_o He'd only made them once before, and that was not long after I'd specifically mentioned that I'd been craving it after seeing endless IHOP commercials advertising it. I very rarely eat breakfast, and for a long time just avoided it altogether, but I do make an effort to eat on Sunday mornings when I have to get up before 8 am anyway. That's the only morning of the week when dad cooks breakfast, so I try not to let it go to waste. Anyway, yeah... I'm sleep drunk and rambly. Bear with me. >>
So the stuffed french toast rocked... church was pretty normal... afternoon sucked as my nap wasn't very successful and I woke up cranky... but then in the evening a combination of Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey and a healthy dose of online Kitty company made the day worth being awake for. And I'm still awake at 6:30 am not only because I got all hooked on the story she spent much of the night writing, but also because a certain Asian dork pounced me online just shortly before I was ready to log out, and for some evil reason talking to him always wakes me up. >_> Punk. But now he's gone and the night/morning is winding down, and I am finally ready to go to bed. Won't be surprised if I'm out till sundown... got a couple nights to catch up on.
*glomps kitty cause she rocks and cause I can*
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/26/2005 06:43:00 AM
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wSunday, September 25, 2005 |
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feeling: frustrated and dreading
listening to: X Japan - Rusty Nail is stuck in my head
Who else has noticed that I only seem to post on Sundays anymore? Of course, in my mind it's still Saturday because I haven't gone to bed yet, but Blogger will call this a Sunday post. Anyway, yeah, interesting trend I thought.
So. Tomorrow... is going to suck. Really going to suck. Not because of anything that's going on, as I have nothing planned except church and a nap, and choir practice if I feel like it... but because of the mood it's going to put me in. I've been mildly depressed all week as it is, and my moods plummet through the floor when I'm sleep deprived. Which is exactly what I'm going to be all day tomorrow, just like every Sunday. Add that to the depression, and I'm gonna be a miserable, useless lump all day.
Just giving fair warning. Not that anyone's likely to both see this before the day's over AND give a flying flip, but you know. Just in case.
In other news, my payment for the two translations I did for Kiwamu's clients is now in the mail, so I expect to get it early in the week. He's also told me that the first of the two companies has more stuff they want translated now, so he plans to give me that information soon... wonder how that'll turn out compared to the first job I did for them.
Also, I got to see FFVII: Advent Children the other day. Enjoyed it greatly. I'm sure that was chiefly because I'm still hopelessly addicted to the 8-year-old game. There was a LOT of reference to it in the movie, as sequels tend to go... so while I'd happily recommend the movie to anyone who knows the game pretty well, those who haven't played FF7 yet should probably do so before viewing. In fact, they should do so anyway. Because it's awesome.
I'd go into better detail about what made the film cool and what made it less than cool, but I don't feel like it.
Other news... I've been working on increasing my J-rock collection again. Looking for more obscure stuff this time, kinda... except X Japan, which I'm getting a lot of too. But I found some folks who actually have stuff like Clavier and Waive and even Se'ikspia, so yeah... getting some interesting goodies. Also looking into stuff I've been meaning to look into for ages now, like 12012, Metronome, Kagrra, etc... and new stuff from bands I like but didn't have much of before... so yeah, the collection is certainly growing here.
And in case you couldn't tell, I don't really have anything interesting to talk about. Not that I ever do, but heh... like I said, still on this little depression kick. But my parents went to town today and came back with random Ben & Jerry's for me, so maybe I can munch on that tomorrow to help make the day slightly less sucky... we'll see I guess.
I should just go to bed. But I know it won't do any good. Every night I go to bed, usually dead tired and utterly grateful just to close my eyes, only to lie there wide awake for hours with a million things poking at my mind. Usually after a couple hours I get frustrated enough to want to just give up and come back to the computer and type up a rant, not unlike this one, about my stupid screwed up sleep schedule and all the junk running through my mind making it worse... but somehow I always manage to fight off the urge and just give it another hour or two, and finally get to sleep. Usually can still manage a decent-length nap, since nothing in my schedule prohibits me from sleeping all afternoon... not that I like doing it every single day... but tomorrow I'm not so lucky. I'll go to bed here soon and probably remain awake right until my alarm goes off at 7:40. And then... well, we all know the rest.
And this post has all been nice and random and scattered. Did I mention I don't feel like thinking, or doing much of anything else at the moment? I think the only thing I feel like right now is a dark, quiet corner with a plushie clutched in my arms and my playlist of angsty ballads pumping through the speakers. But at least, for now, I've ranted.
I'll get over it sooner or later, I'm sure. But tomorrow is still gonna suck.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/25/2005 02:43:00 AM
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wSunday, September 11, 2005 |
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feeling: tired... thoughtful... bored...
listening to: Lion King Musical - Endless Night
The Salt Creek Valley Festival has passed for another year. As usual, it was tiny and pretty pathetic. I mean, how much can you really expect from a festival that takes place in a town consisting of like, 3 streets? But one new thing they had this year was a stand that sold fried cheese... o.o They had fried green tomatoes and hot apple dumplings too... it was a tough choice. x_x Almost - ALMOST - made me wish I'd stayed there until the dinner hour, just so I could munch on more of that carnie food I missed out on at the fair last month. But there was seriously NOTHING else there worth doing in the meantime, so oh well.
Choir was, following the yearly trend, not as painful as the previous year. Still hot, but not as much so, and at least this year we were under a roof so we had shade from the sun. Also, I was in the back row of the risers and there was a rail behind me that I could lean back on. >> << Gave me a chance to see Jess again too, which I'm lucky to do more than 3 times a year anymore, so that was nice. We still always find stuff to reminisce and joke about on those rare occasions when we see each other. I miss her... too bad real life had to erase any chances of us being really close friends again.
And oh dear God... as soon as I got to the last couple sentences of that paragraph, my shuffled ~1500-song playlist started playing a song I keep forgetting I have... Michael W. Smith's Friends. Of all the songs, of all the times... *mutters* and yeah, I doubt anyone else knows why that's so freaking appropriate to the subject... and why it makes me want to curl up in a corner somewhere and block out the world and people around me all over again. >_<
*wills the song to end*
Ahh, David Bowie. Muuuuuuch better. >>
Anyway... heh... I came here to rant about something else entirely, but now I forget what it was. Actually, I didn't forget, I just don't really want to now.
So in random news, today I finished reading all that's available of the most recent installment in Missy Good's Journey of Soulmates fanfic series. Read most of those books over a year ago, but a new one came out since then, and that's the one I finally finished today. Well, all but the last chapter, which isn't up yet. >.< Anyway... so I guess now I can move on and get back into reading her Dar and Kerry uber fic series, which I started yeeeeears ago when it was only 2 books long (it's like, 6 or 7 books and several vignettes now). And no, I don't really expect anyone to know what I'm talking about. >> But for now I'll just say that the reason I get so hooked on her fiction is that the main characters in it have the kind of relationship I only wish was possible in real life so I'd maybe have a chance at finding something like it someday... and I guess I'm at a point in my life now where that appeals to me even more than it used to. Maybe in a masochistic way, but heh, what can you do...
But before I dig myself any deeper there...
Hmm, been ages since I put any kind of betta rant in here, hasn't it? So. I've realized recently that my little femme fishie Pixel is... funny shaped. O.o She's like, all lumpy from her head back to around her gills. I hope it's not a tumor or anything... but she certainly seems about as happy and healthy and psychotic as a single inch of fishie can possibly be, so I guess I shouldn't worry...
And I can't really think of anything else I care to talk about here, so I suppose that ends this week's edition of random whatever.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/11/2005 11:33:00 PM
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wTuesday, September 06, 2005 |
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feeling: uh...
listening to: BLOOD - Awakening
Well, so much for Katrina losing intensity and changing course, I guess... :s Nasty stuff there...
But on a more amusing note, I was sitting here screwing around with various stuff on the computer, trying to decide on which random amusing activity to indulge myself in for a while... Playstation, Nintendo (yeeeah old school baby), reading fanfic, reading real literature >>, doodling, long ranty journal-ing, or of course, Simming. And then, for absolutely no apparent reason, my CDROM tray opened itself. It has never done that since it was installed.
I consider it a sign. *pops in Sims CD*
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/06/2005 05:25:00 PM
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