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feeling: weird...
listening to: D - Angelic Blue
Well, it's 3:30 in the morning and I'm so wide awake it shouldn't be legal. That's what happens when I take naps in the evening. So I figured I'd start my night of looking for stuff with which to occupy myself by posting something nice and random here.
I realized tonight that I've been feeling really... weird for several weeks now. Not really sure how to explain it, but... well, anyone who knows me can attest that I'm hopelessly lazy and unmotivated more often than not. Lately, though, I'm even more lethargic... yet restless at the same time. A lot of it is probably because it's been a long time since I really slept well... I'm tired more often than I used to be, and I've had more headaches in the past few weeks than I'd had probably all year until recently. Not bad ones, just annoying, but I still find it weird... haven't had headache problems since college. I think all of this really hit me just over the past couple days, after Kiwamu sent me a new batch of lyrics to translate and I just have not felt like working on them. Usually I can't wait to dig into projects like that, but this time I can't bring myself to get into it. Not that I don't want to or dislike it, I just can't motivate my brain to wrap around the work this time. Over the course of a few nights I did get them done, pretty much... just need to proofread them once or twice more... but still.
Like I said, it's hard to explain. Probably has a lot to do with not sleeping well... but I guess another part of it might be that the activity level in my daily life has dropped in recent weeks. For a while there I was doing a lot of bouncing back and forth between BLOOD translations, professional translations (sorta >>), obligations arising from Aaron's death, community choir and the festival, helping more around the house when dad hurt his arm, and some other stuff... but lately things have really been slacking again. Normally I wouldn't complain, as lazy is my way of life... but I dunno, maybe I was getting used to it. So now I feel lazy and restless at the same time. You'd think the sudden lull in activity and restlessness would make me more motivated to work on stuff, like those lyrics, but heh... always knew I was weird. >>
Anyway... another recent change in routine, though much more pleasant, is the coming of autumn. The trees are starting to show signs of turning and the weather is blessedly cool compared to the record-breaking heat we had for a while earlier in the summer. I even had to break out my favorite decade-old sweatshirt to start sleeping in again. Yeah, call me weird, but I love cool weather. Even downright cold weather. Partially because of how it changes the entire environment... something about cold winter air makes the air so much clearer, and the stars so much brighter than in summer... and I'm a sucker for a glittering snow-covered country landscape. But I think an even bigger part of it is the bliss of curling up with good old-fashioned body-and-soul-warming comforts like cuddly sweatshirts and fuzzy slippers and heavy blankets and hot chocolate and warm snuggles (>>) and etc etc... I dunno... it kinda gives the feeling of beating the elements or something. I mean, warmth is so much easier to appreciate when it's found among a cold environment. Besides, who doesn't love those classic winter comforts?
Of course, it'll be a couple months yet before I get to really take advantage of all that, but the recent cooling weather is a nice start.
So, now it's 4 am... killing time nicely here... >> Wonder what else I can occupy myself with... hmm. Suppose I should go over the new lyrics again. Or maybe I'll just amuse myself with fanfiction and flash games and other nice mindless amusements like I've been rotting my brain with for the past month or two.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 10/01/2005 03:30:00 AM
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