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I dunno how you found this, but alas, here you are. So enjoy the frightening fruits of my troubled little brain.
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wWednesday, May 28, 2003 |
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feeling: tired, head hurts, eyes hurt, throat hurts
listening to: Whose Line
This is very possibly the most annoying cold I have ever had. Every day it's been something different. Last Thursday I woke up feeling absolutely disgusting all over, so much so that I considered skipping classes that day (but didn't, of course :P). Next day that part had mostly subsided, but my throat had a constant, huge, mega-nasty frog that just would not loosen. Saturday it was my stomach, and I spent most of the evening thinking I might hurl. Sunday and Monday I thought things were actually subsiding so I could go on with life and such. Then Monday, interestingly, it was my eyes. That's never happened before. They were like, all red and sore and slightly itchy and producing more sticky whitish gunk than a glue factory. I was worried about pinkeye, but today my eyes are fine - now it's my throat again. But today it's not just a frog and a tickle like it was the other day; today it actually hurts. And it's accompanied by crudded-up sinuses (which usually attack on the first or second day - they're late) as well as a headache. And I'm so tired it's not funny.
Know what else is great? I have an average of 2 major exams per week over the course of the next 3 weeks. One this Friday, five next week, and two the week after. Hey, I average loosely. :P There's also the massive amount of homework waiting to be done and the pile that was due today, which I turned in even though the prof told us just before collecting them that he'd decided to move the due date to Monday. I'd have strangled him if he hadn't given me a cookie and a mini Crunch bar.
I whine a lot in this blog lately, don't I? Sorry. I'm going to go watch Whose Line now. Apparently I could use the laugh.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/28/2003 10:14:00 PM
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wSaturday, May 24, 2003 |
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feeling: like I want to jump off the Empire State right now
listening to: nothing
I have to babysit Gaki and her father this evening. Alone.
See, for some stupid reason, Gakidaddy is not allowed to be alone with his daughter... ever. Some stupid court ruling in place since his divorce from his basket case ex-wife. These days he's actually living with my grandparents, who are Gaki's legal guardians, because he wants to be with her. So he claims. But it's too much trouble to talk to a lawyer and actually earn back the right to spend a few hours at a time alone with his daughter, even if just to go to the movies or something. But no. Instead, every single time my grandparents want to go somewhere by themselves (which is sickeningly often lately, not that I blame them), they call us to babysit Gaki and Gakidaddy because they're not permitted to be together without another adult present. It's sick.
Yeah... and tonight my parents are going to my former high school's graduation, and the grandparents couldn't find ANYone else to sit for the Gaki Duo, so who gets stuck with the job? ME. Why? Because I'd rather stay home and work on the buttload of homework I have to do for next week than attend graduation. (Seriously, I have way too much geology crap to do and I intended to do most of it tonight.) I didn't even have a say in the matter. Dad couldn't tell them 'too bad, we won't be home and Becky's got work to do'... nooo. Heaven forbid.
*mutter*
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/24/2003 04:56:00 PM
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wTuesday, May 20, 2003 |
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feeling: like I want more Oreos
listening to: Japanese homework
I now have three Ragnarok Online characters. Symone the Swordschick, my baby, is somewhere in the lower 30s levels-wise; Miera the Archer isn't getting much play time since her server seems to be cursed with ridiculous lag lately; and my newest, Raelin the Thief, is ADORABLE. *smooches her* I can't wait to get her all leveled-up and strong~
Ok... so a few days ago my mom told me that our two cats had gotten into a nasty scrap last week. They can't stand each other (Ginger loves tormenting Misty, and Misty hisses and spits up a storm if Ginger comes within 10 feet of her), and neither of them care at all for other cats. We always know there's a stray wandering around our property when we hear these absolutely horrendous yowls and growls outside at night, signaling that Misty or Ginger has spotted a strange feline and is yelling her head off at it. Even worse when they're indoors and see a stray prowling around outside through the back door, especially if it's dark out. That's what happened the other day... Misty was near the back door in the evening and saw a stray just outside the door, and went into that horrible yowling and growling mode that freaks all of us out. And apparently Ginger was in the wrong place at the wrong time (i.e. in the same room at the same moment), because Misty went berserk at the sight of the strange cat, got confused, and pretty well tore Ginger limb from limb. There were huge chunks of fur lying all over the room. I just about freaked when Mom told me this, as Ginger is quite literally the best non-human friend I've ever had (almost the best friend I've ever had, period) and I would wring Misty's spoiled-rotten little neck if she ever hurt her... but apparently Ginger came out of it fine. Dad checked her out and didn't even see any blood, amazingly.
Anyhow, then this morning I woke up from a dream in which I returned home from college for the weekend to find no sign of Ginger. I remember asking Mom "Where's my best friend?" and after a pause she replied with something like, "She's... just sort of... rotting away, as cats go." I asked her when, she said last Tuesday. I asked her why, she said because of infected wounds from an attack by Misty. I looked her in the eye - I could just feel the emotionlessness and blank rage in my eyes burning into her face - and said "And you didn't even tell me?" She said something else, then I asked in that same tone and with the same expression, "You didn't even bury her?" At this point mom was crying and I was started to scare even myself with the look that must've been in my eyes. It went back and forth like this for a while until I just turned around and silently walked away, leaving my mom shocked and crying and who knows what else.
This afternoon when I talked to Mom on ICQ, I immediately asked, "Is Ginger still ok?" Thanks be to God, she said Ginger's still fine. No sign of even having been in a scrap. Lucky for Misty, because I seriously would've snapped that cat's neck if she'd seriously hurt my Ginger. I might still snap her neck for even trying, who knows.
Nah, I wouldn't do that. With her feline brain, she certainly forgot all about it within, maybe, seven seconds. No sense punishing her if she has no clue what she's done. Besides, she was confused. And I love Misty too, no matter how much of a brat she is. Heck, I'm the only human she actually intentionally purrs at. She's a sweetheart... but only if you catch her at the right time. I guess she likes me (so to speak) because I was the only one to figure that out. I'm also the only one who actually pays any attention to her other than to throw her out every night.
I have no point in telling this. I just remember being absolutely petrified when I woke up from that dream, my still-half-asleep brain stuck in the false mentality that my Ginger was dead and my breath all ragged and just... not right. Thought I'd blog it. I've been having tons of insane dreams lately... one almost every night, even, I think... but sadly I've forgotten most of them by now. I know I had one in the last few weeks where I woke up smiling. I love those. :3 I wish I kept a dream log or something...
And now I'm off to start the pile of homework I should've started 2 hours ago.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/20/2003 08:51:00 PM
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wFriday, May 09, 2003 |
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feeling: bored and tired
listening to: Chu Chu Rocket
Chu chu roketto, nezumi o taskerou... chu chu roketto, neko wa kowai... *bashes head on desk*
More adventures with Kazaa. Apparently the reason I haven't been able to download, install, run, etc. Kazaa for the past week is because the university is going out of its way to block as many filesharing programs on campus as they can. They've arrested students and confiscated computers, for crying out loud. *snort* When is this world gonna get it... they succeeded in getting rid of Napster, but then two dozen new P2Ps sprang up in its place. You can't suppress file sharing. It always bounces back. *sticks tongue out at OSU*
Ragnarok Online has successfully eaten my brain, again. My sweet little swordy chick Symone lives again, better than ever... she went from bumbling novice to spiffy swordswoman within one day, and now she's halfway down the road to becoming a knight - currently the highest swordsman evolution, though there is evidence that a third job class will be added somewhere down the road. If that ever happens, I suppose one day she'll go from Knight to Crusader. According to the graphics I've seen thus far, Symone will make a really weird looking crusader. ¬.¬ I'm still trying to find the right headpiece/mask/etc. combination to make her look cool as a crusader... and using this astoundingly addicting character sim to play with her look. In case you'd like to play along, Symone-chan's head is the same as the default novice's (the one that's already on the screen when you load the Female Sim page). That cute, stringy, somewhat untidy blond hair. Put that head on the crusader's body (bottom 2 rows, second column) - doesn't it look weird? :\
In the meantime, I'm also trying to settle on a good look and name for a female archer/hunter. I LOVE the female hunter. It'll be even cuter if I ever manage to find/afford that adorable Elvin Ears headpiece to stick on her. *daydream* And I want a female assassin/rogue too, and a male assassin/rogue... oh, and the female blacksmith is ADORABLE. Too bad you have to be a merchant before you can be a blacksmith. Ugh, I couldn't stand to be a merchant.
Dumplin' needs to get RO so she can ph33l the 4dd1ct10n too~ >:D No, seriously... you're right to want to wait till summer, the Age of Free Time... so if you start downloading from BitTorrent now, it just might be finished by the first day of summer! X3 *egg egg* Only problem is the file's a monstrous 570 megs... so make sure you have well over half a gig of free hard drive space first... I had to get rid of a few things before I could download it. :P;; This piddy 30-gig drive just don't cut it anymore... maybe it's a good thing I'm Kazaaless until summer so I can't download any more fansubbed Inuyasha eps...
I hate my geology class. But the teacher is great. Every Wednesday we have these literally painful 3-hour-long labs, and halfway through every lab period he comes in and walks around giving everyone cookies and candy to keep us going. ^^ This week's lab, he gave me a... oh, the beauty... a Jelly Belly brand buttered popcorn flavored CANDY CANE. *flies around* Jelly Belly buttered popcorn is THE best jelly bean flavor EVER, and I didn't even know they made candy canes, let alone buttered popcorn ones. Talk about a happy Becky. Well, until Becky went home from that lab and began the first of three days spent cramming her butt off for a midterm in the same class. Joy is fleeting. *sigh*
It's Mother's Day weekend. Have you hugged your mommy lately? :3
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/09/2003 08:01:00 PM
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wFriday, May 02, 2003 |
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feeling: warm
listening to: nothing
Ragnarok Online is BACK!!! :D
I have sooo missed this game~ I was into it for a few months, then it just kind of disappeared from the face of the earth probably a year ago... and when it returned it was Closed Beta, which meant you could only play if you were willing to pay. But just a couple days ago the free Open Beta came to life again. *squee* Now if only I could download it.
Oh, that's a funny story. The game actually came back on Wednesday, but no matter how many times I tried I could not get the thing to download. Yesterday afternoon I finally got the download started - a whopping 570 MB - and it spent a few hours getting halfway complete before committing seppuku. I kept trying all night and all day today, with no success. Apparently the RO home page is only permitting 400 downloads at a given time, which explains why the other hundred thousand of us are having no luck.
Now here's where the fun starts. First, I realize that my computer is running out of space. Its 23 Gig hard drive is less than a gig away from full. Which meant the 570 meg RO download would really be pushing it. So I decided to clear up some space on my hard drive by getting rid of the 800+ MP3 files in my Kazaa folder (I had them all backed up in other places... don't worry, I haven't lost my brain :P). So I do that, freeing up a couple more gigs. Yay. Then guess what happens? Kazaa decides it doesn't want to play anymore. Every time I open it I immediately get an illegal operation window and it closes. I restart the computer several times, with no luck. Finally I uninstall Kazaa completely and reinstall the newest version. STILL won't work. So basically, I'm Kazaa-less. If I can't figure out the problem by the end of the weekend, I think I'm just gonna wipe it out again, and perhaps try reinstalling later.
Anyhow, yeah. So in my attempts to make room on my drive for RO, I somehow sacrificed Kazaa. Next step... find a place where I can actually download the RO client, since the official site's constantly dead. I check the official message boards and see a bunch of people recommending BitTorrent, a much smaller P2P type thingy that several folks have apparently been using to download the game. So I go and download BitTorrent, which takes a few tries, but eventually I'm successful. And it took no time at all to find another user who's sharing RO. So at last, it is currently downloading. ^^ It won't be done till tomorrow night at best, but that's cool, because I'll be gone for the weekend starting sometime in the next hour or so anyhow. I just hope my computer doesn't explode or whatever while I'm gone. It's been feeling just a little bit toasty lately...
Sooo, there we go. Adventures in RO and P2P. And maybe someday I'll get my Kazaa back.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/02/2003 08:23:00 PM
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