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I dunno how you found this, but alas, here you are. So enjoy the frightening fruits of my troubled little brain.
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wSaturday, December 17, 2005 |
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feeling: tired and stuffy
listening to: Glory to the Lamb stuck in my head >>;
Ah yes, it is now officially the Christmas season. I've finally come down with my annual winter head cold. Was awakened this morning after 3 1/2 hours in bed by my sudden inability to breathe through my nose, and 12-hour Sudafed, for the first time, did very little to help. So after getting to church at 8am and spending a couple hours helping to create and put up the backdrop for the play, I spent another couple hours playing my trumpet and singing with the choir. I'm amazed I got through it all, as congested and tired as I was.
But the really annoying part is that I don't feel tired enough to take a nap now. So tonight I'll be dead tired but too sick to sleep, unless the meds actually work this time, and then I'll have to get up at 7:30 tomorrow morning too, and then perform a total of *counts* 3 times in the morning during service and 3 times in the evening program. I think. One of those might be a 4...
I intend to spend the largest possible portion of Monday doing nothing but sleeping. >>
Anywaaaaay... that "year in review" meme has already been spreading around on Livejournal, and I was planning to do it sometime after Christmas but before the new year, but just for the sake of having something non-church-related to post, I'm gonna put that here now. Then hop over to LJ and do it there next, I suppose. Sooooo...
Year in Review meme: Go to your Calendar and find the first entry (excluding memes) for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your 'Year In Review'.
Yes, I've abandoned FF7 right at the start of disc 2 and moved on to a new FF9 game. >.> This --> [clicky!] ...is the best picture ever. Been in one of those moods where I've wanted to post SOMEthing SOMEwhere but have no idea what or which journal to put it in. I don't know HOW I managed to get to sleep this morning. KAEDE IS HOT. There. Saw the coolest thing this evening. Yeah... been kinda clinging to my Livejournal lately for some reason. Well, so much for Katrina losing intensity and changing course, I guess... :s Well, it's 3:30 in the morning and I'm so wide awake it shouldn't be legal. I still want to know what in the bloody blazes is wrong with me. Man, this sucks.
Well, that was pretty entertaining. :P Now to go repeat on LJ...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 12/17/2005 02:45:00 PM
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wTuesday, December 13, 2005 |
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feeling: back hurts
listening to: nothing
Today was a very... special day, on all kinds of levels. That is all I will say on the matter.
In random news, I think my monitor is finally giving up on life. All black text looks somewhat purple, and everything on the screen has a weird sort of two-tone shadow off to the immediate right. Just noticed that in the past couple days. And here I thought my eyesight was just getting worse.
Actually, I think that's true as well. Nothing really looks clear anymore. My vision doesn't seem as sharp as it used to be either.
But my monitor is definitely not right.
Anyway, I shouldn't still be awake. I'm leaving at 9:30am to go to town with mom for some random supplies. But I'm not tired. And even if I wait until I am, I probably won't sleep when I actually do go to bed, so might as well not waste time trying.
On the other hand, lying down would surely feel better than sitting here staring at this screen. For the hour or so before it leads to the usual aching head and eyes, at least.
I'm going, I'm going.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 12/13/2005 02:55:00 AM
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wMonday, December 12, 2005 |
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feeling: stomach is slightly blah
listening to: HIM - Play Dead
Man, this sucks. For the past few days I've felt all weirdly awake and alert and motivated to actually do stuff, but I don't really have anything to do. >__> Well, except translations of course... but either they're easy enough that I can finish them in one quick shot and then get bored again, or I'm stuck on the same thing that's been throwing me for months and I couldn't make any progress if I tried. Here I am actually WANTING to accomplish things for once in a blue bleedin' moon, and there's nothing for me to do. What a waste. >>
I shouldn't say that. There are millions of things I could and probably should be doing. But apparently none of them immediately come to mind.
Sooooo instead I've been killing my free time playing Final Fantasy 9. >____> Made it through the entirety of disc 2 in... 3 or 4 days, or something. I'm just at the beginning of disc 3 now, where I get to spend hours making Vivi race Hippaul just to get rare cards. Goodie goodie wee.
Anyway... the holiday season is in full swing, as I'm sure everyone has noticed. There's always one week in December that has me running around like crazy, and this year, that week begins tomorrow. Or... I guess it began today with practices at church... but I've been going to those for a few weeks now, so anyway. My annual week of insanity is impending. And no, it doesn't even involve shopping. I'm pretty much done shopping. >> Doesn't involve the 2 big family dinners either, which happen closer to the actual holiday. At this point I'm just rambling. Tick tock tick tock.
In the interest of shutting me up, here - enjoy a survey thing.
If I were a month I would be : December
If I were a day of the week I would be : Tuesday - abso-freakin-lutely nothing special about it >>
If I were a time of day I would be : dusk
If I were a planet I would be : Pluto - the one people recently started to theorize isn't really a planet...
If I were a sea animal I would be : ummm... jellyfish? everyone raves about how pretty and fascinating they are, but ask them to go near one... >>
If I were a direction I would be : is uphill a direction? as in, it's gotta be all uphill from here?
If I were a sin I would be : ...yeah, like I'd say anything other than sloth >>
If I were a liquid I would be : valium *ahem*
If I were a stone I would be : gneiss >> don't ask
If I were a tree I would be : something evergreen
If I were a bird I would be : sparrow... not as annoying as pigeons, but still pesky and not all that remarkable
If I were a weapon I would be : I like to think a nice sharp tongue :P
If I were a flower/plant I would be : hmmmm... what did I decide? honeysuckle? >> <<
If I were a kind of weather I would be : cold, cloudy, but calm and quiet
If I were a mythical creature I would be : phoenix, or so I'm told
If I were a musical instrument I would be : bass? *.*
If I were an animal I would be : kitty!
If I were a color I would be : blue, or perhaps grey
If I were an emotion I would be : indifference
If I were a vegetable I would be : umm, broccoli... no one likes it unless it's nice and buttered up >>
If I were a sound I would be : snow falling in the forest
If I were an element I would be : are we talking Chinese style or periodic table? >> if the latter, I neither know nor want to think about it... otherwise, water
If I were a song I would be : yeeeeah there's tons... just about anything by Gackt (Mirror, Hoshi no Suna, Sekirei...), In Joy And Sorrow or In Love And Lonely by HIM... and yeah... more than I want to sit here and try to remember
If I were a book I would be written by : like I have a clue >>
If I were a place I would be : a little clearing in the woods
If I were a material I would be : fleece o.o
If I were a scent I would be : something dessert... some kind of cookie maybe?
If I were a religion I would be : Christianity... we'll leave it at that
If I were a word I would be : I dunno, apathy?
If I were an object I would be : a doormat
If I were a facial expression I would be : blank stare, possibly one eyebrow raised
If I were a subject in school I would be : English (composition, grammar, literature, you name it)
If I were a cartoon character I would be : Peppermint Patty's cute little lackey, Marcie
If I were a shape I would be : circle (saying square would be too easy)
If I were a number I would be : 7 I guess
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 12/12/2005 01:00:00 AM
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wThursday, November 24, 2005 |
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feeling: wiped
listening to: something by Lacuna Coil stuck in my head
Another Thanksgiving come and gone. Dad actually attempted to cut a few corners in cooking this year - like, only one pumpkin pie instead of two (cutting the grand total of dessert dishes down to a lean 6 :P), and a slightly smaller turkey >> - but he still spent probably 25 total hours or more cooking when all was said and done. And yet somehow I think we have even more leftovers this year than we have in the past. He's not gonna have to cook another meal for like, a week... and after that it'll still take another 2 or 3 weeks to get rid of everything. Then the Christmas cooking can begin. I love this season. :P
It was kinda sad when they had to carry my grandma up the stairs to bring her into the house... but at least she felt well enough to come at all, I suppose. Still, at least last year she could still climb the stairs, with assistance. Every holiday get-together makes me wonder just how many more she'll be able to spend with us...
Anyway, that's that.
In random news, Phoenix is still a little punk. Hard to believe how much he's turned around since I cleaned all the algae out of his tank and got him new java moss and frozen food for the first time in months. It's like it took a year off his life. He even has two little bubblenests going on today.
And for those who remember the tiny pond snails that stowed away in the new java moss I got for him and the late Pixel... two of the four, the biggest and the smallest, remain. They're living quite comfortably in Pixel's old tank, which is filled to halfway with the leftover java moss that she only got a couple weeks' use out of before her tumor got the better of her. And little Tiny, who seriously was no bigger than little Pixel's eyeball a month ago, is now at least twice his former size. o.o He might even be grown enough now to escape Phoenix's big snapping jaws. Also, he has taken up the habit of crawling along the underside of the water's surface. How does he do that? o.o
I need to decide what kind of filter and second plant to get for my new 5g tank and find a place to set it up so I can put a new fishie in it and have two little wiggledancing punks in here again...
And now I think I'll go mess with my LJ dream log... it's been a weird couple of weeks...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 11/24/2005 11:06:00 PM
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wThursday, November 17, 2005 |
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feeling: ...not worth discussing
listening to: nothing
Been a long time since I posted a survey here. So of course, when I happened to stumble across one that was 500 questions long, I pounced all over it like the glutton for pain that I am. So here you go. Not that I expect many people to read through it all, but here you go anyway.
~Basics~
001. What is your name? Becky
002. Spell your name backwards: Ykceb >>
003. Date of birth: June 23
004. Male or female? female
005. Astrological sign: Cancer
006. Nickname: ...Kitty or Senpai?
007. My profession: I don't get paid to do it... so I guess it doesn't count
008. Height: like 5'5"
009. Weight: don't know anymore and don't feel like finding out
010. Hair color: dull blah brown
011. Eye color: unrecognizeable blue
012. Where were you born? Chillicothe, OH
013. Where do you reside now: see above
014. Age: 23
015. Screen names: ShivaKat9... and my other 3 are not for the public to know >.>
016. Are you online often? only late at night anymore...
017. What does your screen name stand for? Shiva, my favorite FF summon, and the kat is kinda a given
018. What is your diary name? find it yourself, it's not hard >>
019. What does your diary name stand for? it's based on the title of one of my favorite DIr en Grey songs
020. Pets: cat Ginger, betta Phoenix... I've lost a cat, a dog, and a betta in the past 6 months -_-
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? none... haven't done candles since I was a little kid
022. Piercings? one per ear
023. Tattoo's? none.. ow
024. Shoe size? 8, 8 1/2, depends on the style
025. Righty or lefty? righty
026. Wearing: plaid lounge pants, the most comfortable ancient worn-out oversized sweatshirt in the world, and the infamous pig slippers
027. Hearing: the computer humming and the baseboard heater popping
028. Feeling: bleak and whatever
029. Eating/drinking: nothing... just had Koolaid with my pain killers...
~Friends Stuff~
Which one of your friends is the....
030. Craziest? ...gonna assume this is talking about my LJ friends, but since I prefer to put long surveys here... don't know
031. Loudest? *snort*
032. Nicest? all of them
033. Bitchiest? Kiwi :P
034. Life of the party? not sure
035. Jock? I think Roger comes closest >>
036. Prep? none
037. Rebel? ...Dumplin'? :P
038. Cutest? Kitty and Dumplin' of course... and Connie and Stella >>
039. Best friend of the same sex? Kitty and Dumplin'
040. Best friend of the opposite sex? don't have a lot of guy friends...
041. Most popular? Connie probably
042. Rudest? none of them
043. Most shy? heh me
044. Dumbest? none
045. Smartest? Adion comes to mind for some reason lol
046. Weirdest? everyone ^^
047. Has the best hair? not sure...
048. Best personality? they're all cool
049. Most talented? again...
052. Drama queen? Kiwi of course >>
054. Funniest? Kitty and Dumplin'
055. Best advice giver? hmmm...
057. Most likely to join a cult? *shuts up*
058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently? recently... um... maybe?
059. Person you've been friends with the longest? Dumplin'
060. How many people on your friendlist? on LJ... like 25... half of them are the same person :P
~Love/Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? yeah
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? probably a lot
063. How many people have you been in love with? ...
064. How many people have said "I love you" to you? less so
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? yep
066. How many people have you dated? ahem... none
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? smile, eyes, and hair
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for? sweet, caring, fairly reserved... I dunno...
070. Do you have a bf/gf? no
073. Do you have a crush right now? heh...
074. If so who is it? moving on
075. Do you believe in love at first sight? no
076. Do you remember your first love? yes
077. Who is the first person you really liked? probably Ryan D. in junior high...
078. Do you believe in fate? sort of
079. Do you believe in soul mates? yes...
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours? heh interesting question
~Family Stuff~
104. How many siblings do you have? one older brother
105. What are your parents names? Charlie Jr. and Jayne
106. What are your siblings names? Chris
107. How many siblings does your mother have? 4
108. How many siblings does your father have? 2 living, 1 died ages ago
109. Where are your parents from? same area as me
110. Is your family close? I suppose so
111. Does your family get together for holidays? yes, at every possible chance in the case of dad's side
112. Do you have a drunk uncle? I have uncles who drink, but not the stereotypical disgusting lush, no
113. Any medical problems run through your family? heart stuff like high cholesterol, abdominal and other cancers, I think sarcoid
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? no
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? one nephew
116. Are your parents divorced? no
117. Do you have stepparents? no
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? no
119. If so for what? ...
120. Did some of your family come to the United States from another country? not unless you go back several generations before anyone still living now was even born
~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? Canary by BLOOD... and several others I can't think of
124. What song do you absolutely hate? lots
125. Do you sing in the shower? not out loud >>
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? um... could answer that in several ways... wait, no I couldn't
~Favorites~
152. Color: blue
153. Food: ice cream
154. Song: too many to list
155. Show: Whose Line is it Anyway, British version
156. School subject: art, English... and Japanese and mythology in college
158. Animal: cats, especially big/wild cats
159. Outfit: don't really pay attention to that stuff
160. Radio station: radio in this country usually sucks
162. Pair of shoes: again, don't really pay attention...
163. Cartoon: Simpsons, Futurama, and Family Guy, I guess... hardly ever watch any of them now though
166. Potato chip: honey BBQ
167. Drink: pretty much any non-citrus fruit juice
168. Alcholic drink: none
169. Holiday: Christmas
170. Perfume/ favorite cologne: don't wear any... probably should
171. Pizza topping: pepperoni, extra cheese, sausage, mushrooms... banana... etc
172. Jello flavor: dunno, most Jello is good
173. Lunch meat: honey ham
174. Board game: Monopoly with the right opponents
175. Video game: Final Fantasy 7
176. Website: not sure...
177. Book: don't read many books
179. Number: no idea
180. Cereal: I like most cereals, as long as they are or can be heavily sweetened
182. Dessert: ice cream
183. Disney character: maybe Lilo
184. Clothing store: not into clothes shopping
185. Pasttime: translating, random net surfing, doodling, J-music...
187. Childhood toy: plushies
188. Carnival game/ride: used to be Scrambler... then Roundup... there've been several
189. Candy: anything chocolate, caramel, or mint
190. Magazine: not a magazine person
191. Salad dressing: the raspberry dressing they had at the Marketplace *yearns*... and no, it wasn't the vinaigrette
192. Thing to do on the weekend: weekends and weekends are pretty much the same for me these days
193. Hot drink: hot chocolate, flavored cappuccinos/mochas/etc
194. Season: winter
195. Sport to watch: figure skating
196. Person to talk to online: Kitty and Dumplin'
~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets? right now, white... usually light blue... and dark blue comforter
198. What color are your bedroom walls? ice blue
199. Have posters on your wall? no, but 6 or 7 are waiting to be put up
200. If so of what? Gackt, Dir en Grey, BLOOD, Snoopy, tigers
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yes
202. How many pillows are on your bed? two
203. What do you normally sleep in? pajama/lounge pants and an old T-shirt or sweatshirt
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: I don't really wear sets... just the pants with a random old shirt
205. What size bed do you have? standard waterbed
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? yeeees
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? no
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? no
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: uh... I guess the one where Kitty and I went to some high-rolling convention thing and got lost and were starving and nobody cared, and then we got separated and etc etc...
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? a few share the bed with me, yes
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? depends on who they are >>
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? twisted up with my back flat on the bed, my head turned in one direction, and my legs folded in the other?
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? no, but used to
214. Do you snore? I don't think so... no one's told me I do >>
215. How about drool? on rare occasions
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? of course
217. What color is the carpet in your room? you mean the remnants covering the plywood floor? various shades of brown... and we won't go into the rugs >>
218. What's under your bed? nothing.. waterbed
219. Coke/Pepsi: Pepsi
220. Doughnuts/bagels: doughnuts
241. Read/watch tv: TV
242. CD's/Tapes: CDs
243. DVDs/VHS: DVDs
244. Old/new: depends
245. Shorts/skirts: on me, neither
246. Pink/red: red
247. Color pictures/black and white photos: color
249. Mexican food/chinese food: Chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: ick, neither
251. Scary movies/comedies: comedies
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: usually tennis shoes
254. Dogs/cats: cats
255. Unicorns/fairies: gryphons
256. Water/land: again... depends
257. Sugar/spice: sugar, unless the spice is cinnamon
258. Black/white: white for animals, black for pretty much everything else
259. Ribbons/bows: ribbons
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/white christmas lights: white I think
262. Cars/trucks: cars
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: neither
264. Popcorn/pretzel: popcorn, unless it's the giant soft pretzels
265. Hip/hop: eww
266. Passionate kiss/peck: aaaaagain... depends
267. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: neither
268. Backrub/foot massage: backrub
269. Picture frames/photo albums: albums
270. Pens/pencils: pencils
~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~
271. Eminem: got annoying long ago
272. Sports: not for me
273. God: yes... and not gonna go into that further
274. The Osbournes: ...
275. Reality TV: boring
276. J.Lo: don't care
277. Religion: good when people don't turn it into something it's not
278. Emo music: generally annoying
279. Valentine's Day: not for me
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: she went somewhere?
281. Homosexuals: same as everyone else
282. Abortion: should be reserved for cases when the mother's and/or baby's life is in serious danger
283. Interracial relationships: fine with me, as long as communication is possible
284. Murder: useless
285. Death: inevitable
286. Obesity: it happens
287. Pre-marital sex: not usually a good idea
288. Terrorism: bad thing, but all the propaganda and media hype in recent years has turned my reaction into more of a "meh"
289. Pornography: amusing actually >>
290. Fortune tellers: good for a chuckle
291. Threesomes: could be interesting, could be disturbing >>
292. Prostitution: doesn't concern me
294. Country music: ...no
295. George W. Bush: idiot
296. Cloning: man wasn't meant to play God
297. Britney's boobs: ...do I care?
298. Gas prices in America: don't ask me to discuss that...
~Name Game~
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?...
299. Jack: the movie with Robin Williams... YES, there's actually a movie I've seen... like, gasp >.>
300. Tiffany: lamps >>
301. Ben: Gentle
302. Mariah: Carey
303. Jennifer: girl I graduated with
304. Nicole: another girl from school
305. Amy: a former best friend
306. Adam: first man created
307. Richard: the very-possibly-most-respected man in our church and school district and community in general
308. Justin: kid I used to be friends with at church... haven't seen him in ages
309. Arnold: Schwarzenegger, and no idea if I spelled that right
310. Tom: that annoying guy from Daria >>
311. Melissa: Joan Hart *ahem* or my first advisor in college
312. Charlotte: the spider with the web
313. Harold: the kid from Hey Arnold
314. John: Jacob Jingleheimer Smith...
315. Joel: Billy
316. Vanessa: Williams
317. Michelle: my middle name >>
318. Kevin: ...reminds me of the generic high school preppy jerk
319. Brent: one of my Sims, but his name's Brett >> don't ask
320. Karen: a girl from church a few years older than my brother
321. Billy: Billie Jean (the song)
322. Sarah: Plain and Tall
323. Natalie: *cough*
324. Christy: not sure actually...
325. Nick: the kid from church with longer hair than mine :P
326. Alex: Mack
327. Taylor: ...don't ask >>
328. Jordan: see above
329. Jaime: another girl I graduated with
330. Adrian: YO ADRIAN!
~Have You Ever....~
331. Mooned anyone? nnnnno
332. Been on a diet? sort of... have to watch the intake due to the ulcer
333. Been to a foreign country? only Mexico
334. Broken a bone? nose yes, bone no
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no
336. Sworn at a teacher? no
337. Talked to an LJ member via e-mail: several times
338. Gotten in a fight? not serious ones
339. Dated a teacher? no
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? maybe when I was like, really little >>
341. Thought about killing your enemy? not exactly...
342. Gone skinny dipping? no... would not inflict that horror upon the world
343. Met another LJ member in the flesh? several of them
344. Told a little white lie? probably... can't remember any
345. Told a secret? not on purpose...
346. Used a foreign object to masturbate? uh... no
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? no :P
348. Been on tv? our dorky little local channel, yes
349. Been on the radio? twice
350. Been in a mosh pit? no
351. Been to a concert? a few
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? yeah
354. Decieved somebody close to you? I don't think so... I hope not
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? yes
360. Gotten to ride on a firetruck? yeah... dad used to be a volunteer at the fire dept.
361. Came close to dying? maybe...
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? no
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? a few times... I think... not counting my nephew, which is a fairly obvious yes
364. Terrorized a babysitter? no
365. Made a mud pie? no
366. Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff? not a cliff, but I used to have a lot of random falling dreams
369. Had an eating disorder? no
370. Felt like you didn't belong? every moment of every day
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? see above
372. Smoked? no
373. Done drugs? no
374. Stolen money from a poor person begging on the street? no
375. Had your tonsils removed? no
376. Gone to camp? yeah
377. Won a bet? not really
378. Written a love letter? if I did, it was never sent
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? if it's to be with the one I love, there's no such thing as "out of my way"
380. Written a love poem? kind of... ages ago... I think
381. Kissed in the rain? no
382. Slow danced with someone you love? no
383. Participated in cyber sex? ... >.>
384. Stolen something from a store? no
385. Stolen a kiss? no
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? what relationship?
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? what bf/gf?
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone special? ...don't get the point yet?
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? no
390. Done jail time? no
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? no
392. Won a trophy? small ones in gradeschool... spelling bees and reading awards and stuff
393. Thrown up in public? if school counts as public
394. Bowled a perfect game? *snort* no
395. Failed/got held back? no
396. Gotten perfect attendance in grade school? in grade school, not sure... I was sick a lot
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? don't think so
398. Taken ballet lessons? no
399. Attempted suicide? no
400. Cut yourself? not intentionally
~Childhood Stuff~
401. Did you play with Barbies? very occasionally
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls? yeah, a few
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210? no, except once or twice to see what it was about
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? no
408. Did you wear underwear with the days of the week on them? no
409. Were you shy? yes
410. Were you spoiled? not really, but I acted like it >>
411. Were you abused? no
412. Did you go to the circus? once or twice on field trips
413. Did you go to the zoo? quite a few times
414. Were you in a car accident? only fender benders and stuff
415. Did you build snowmen? yeah
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee? not that I recall
417. Were your older cousins mean to you? a few of them
418. Did you think slinkies were cool? yep :p
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? no, but I liked the cartoon
420. Were you afraid of the dark? no, always loved the dark... I was a weird kid
421. Did you have slumber parties? not really
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, sleeping bags and pajamas? no
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? for a few years
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425. Do you believe in aliens? I believe the universe is way too vast to only host one celestial body that supports life... but if there's anything else living out there Earthlings will probably never see them
426. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: Phoenix's tank, pile of candy,alarm clock
427. Any hidden talents? none I know of
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? I wouldn't watch it if they did, so don't care
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? one nobody in their right mind would want to sit through
430. What would your movie star name be? not something I think about
431. Do you play any sports? ran track for 2 years... otherwise, only badminton >>
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? movies don't really scare me... I just don't like excessive gore
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? no idea... not a movie buff
435. Do you drive? yes
436. What is your dream car? one that runs
438. Do others think you are good looking? *snort* riiiight
439. Would you ever sky dive? maybe
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? no
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? no, I love them
443. Do you believe in God? yes
444. Do you believe in Satan? yes
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? yes
446. Do you believe there is a hell? yes
447. Do you own a pool table? used to have a bumper pool table... donated it to the church and no idea what happened to it after that
448. Do you have a pool? no
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? no
450. Do you like chocolate? yes
451. Who/what is on your 2005 calendar? freaky looking twisted images of cats and dogs
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? only ever saw one, and I was busy driving so I wasn't thinking about wishing >>
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? probably the hippie... ridiculouly simple but mad authentic :P
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? no
456. What is your weakness? ...I'd be pretty stupid to reveal it on a public blog, wouldn't I? >>
457. Name something you can't get enough of: *ahem* pass...
458. Do you ever want to get married? not really...
459. How many kids do you want to have? none
462. What is your ideal way to die? peacefully and surrounded by loved ones... but what are the odds of that, really?
463. How do you vent? in a private journal... or I just lie on my bed completely silent for anywhere from 30 minutes to a couple hours and mentally tear myself apart
464. Are you a trendy person? by no stretch of the imagination
465. Are you an artistic person? not really
466. Are you a realistic person? I think so
467. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? most of the time, but not always... unless they're tennis shoes, in which case they're NEVER untied
468. Are you a strong person? heck no
469. Are you a strong-willed person? well, I'm stubborn >>
470. Who was the last person to e-mail you? Roger or Kitty... not sure now
471. Who was the last person to IM you? Kitty
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? generally
473. Are you a deep sleeper? I wish
474. Are you a good story teller? no
475. What do you believe is your best quality? ...I'm an expert at keeping my mouth shut?
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? graduating college I guess...
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? candles, but I rarely do for some reason
479. Do you have your own credit card? no, just debit
480. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money? pay off college bills first... then vacation to Japan... rest goes in savings
481. Do you have a checkbook? no
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484. What color is your hair naturally? dull blah brown
485. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? none
486. Is the glass half full or half empty? completely empty... and the pain killers aren't working
487. Worst feeling in the world? knowing someone you love is hurting and you can't do a thing to help
488. Best feeling in the world? love
489. Last website you were at? um, here? and checking my Yahoo email
490. Last thing you downloaded? I think Spieluhr by Rammstein
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? yes, on purpose >>
492. What do you think people think of you? that I'm quiet and shy and backward and not really useful but nice to have around in case a particular need comes up
493. Are you a likeable person? doubt it
494. Do you need therapy? probably... hard to say
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? no
496. What the best way to propose to someone? wouldn't know
498. Fed Ex and UPS were to merge: ...?
499. What's your favorite phrase? I see...
500. What are you thinking right now? why won't this headache go away?... oh yeah, maybe because I just answered a 500-question survey and am still staring at this monitor like the slug I am
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 11/17/2005 12:20:00 AM
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wSunday, November 13, 2005 |
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feeling: blech
listening to: Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer stuck in my head
Yeah, my parents' favorite station is already playing nonstop Christmas music. Even I think it's too early for that, and I have a long-standing fondness for the stuff. >> Well, the ones that skip on the annoying commercial themes anyway. But dude, they could at least wait until Thanksgiving...
Ah, Thanksgiving is coming. Which means it's almost that magical time of the year where my father spends the greater part of three full days cooking enough food and desserts to feed an army, leaving our fridge and countertops full of leftovers for no less than a month. Food is lovely. *heart*
But speaking of Christmas stuff starting early, our new pastor has been all excited about resurrecting and joining the church brass ensemble ever since he got here, so whereas in previous years we would only meet a couple times before the program, this year we're starting practice early. Namely, tonight. And every Sunday evening at 5:30 for the next month or so. And since there are only about 6 people in it and I'm the first chair trumpet, it's gonna be really hard to play hookey on practices like I've been doing with choir all season so far. -_- Not that I mind being part of this stuff... I just don't like doing anything on Sundays other than napping. >> Even worse, it's gonna make it even harder for me to see my kitty this month. *whine*
On the plus side, they had a ton of homemade ice cream at church leftover from Tuesday's election luncheon, so now I have 2 quarts. It ain't Ben & Jerry's, but it's better than nothing, and it was free. And on the most amusing note of the day... one little boy who came to church with the pastor's family this morning TOTALLY looked like a six year old version of Andres. :P Dark complexion, shoulder length black hair, even the same style of clothes. And he was carrying around a Care Bear with sunglasses. *giggles* I've never found it so difficult to resist the urge to randomly glomp a child.
On non-church related notes... hmm... our mama deer with the triplet fawns has returned to our front yard once or twice. I've never seen deer as fearless as this doe and the baby trio she brings here every year or two. Pretty cool. And if they keep coming back maybe I can actually get pictures of them after all. *pets brand new camera batteries*
Anyway... I feel blech. Slept for 2 or 3 of the 5 hours I spent in bed, woke up with a headache, and now my stomach is being all weird. And I have to be ready to leave at 5... so I suppose I should go try to get my nap in before then.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 11/13/2005 01:01:00 PM
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wTuesday, November 08, 2005 |
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feeling: groggy
listening to: Tarzan - Phil Collins - You'll Be In My Heart
Eeesh, what a sucky weekend that was. I don't think I've ever been THAT depressed, especially for no apparent reason (or with no apparent provocation, anyway). If crying is any measure of depression severity, I think I set a record. Three nights in a row spent bawling like a baby, after never shedding a tear for like, 5 whole years... not for lack of trying, but because I just don't cry, or so I thought >>... so yeah, that was all special. Not a fun weekend.
I'm fine now though. Felt better by yesterday, really, but yesterday was annoying for reasons of its own. >> For one thing it was the day before an election day, which meant phones ringing off the hook with "VOTE FOR OUR CANDIDATE" calls, completely eliminating any chance of sleep after about 9:30 in the morning. Then my nephew arrived and wouldn't let me nap away the afternoon, all of which resulted in one very tired and grumpy me.
And it's all stormy and icky outside right now. Was like that all night too. Kept me up until after 6 am. =_= Well, that and the fact that my mind was so full of random weird thoughts that sleep wouldn't have been possible anyway. So I guess I'm back to being your good ol' everyday insomniac. Yay.
Honestly, though, I do feel better. >>
And I thought there was something else I meant to say... but I forget. Oh well, storm's getting nasty again so I should probably submit this before we lose power.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 11/08/2005 03:43:00 PM
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wTuesday, October 25, 2005 |
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feeling: drowsy and bleh
listening to: The Entertainer is stuck in my head >>
Blah, I hate this dry manufactured heat. I swear, when the air outside is bitter cold, I'd rather just be wrapped up in cozy sweatshirts and blankets with a mug of hot chocolate in hand than sit in a room heated to 75+ degrees. Dry heat makes me tired and achy and itchy. And yet I despise humidity too cause it makes me tired and headachy and congested. >> Some people just can't be pleased, huh?
I know, I'm weird. But it seems like every weather element manages to make me feel sick and/or achy and miserable somehow or other, except just plain and simple cool temperatures. Heat, humidity, wind, rain... all makes me miserable somehow. Except cold. Or well... anything below about 75 is ideal to me, as long as it's not raining.
It is rainy today though, which is probably the majority of the problem...
Anyway, I think I was right in my last post. Pixel is slowly getting worse, and now I'm almost certain it's because of that lump behind her gill. Because it's right between the gill slit and the base of her right pectoral fin... and she seems to not want to use that fin anymore. And as those who know bettas are probably aware, they keep those little transparent pectoral fins moving pretty much CONSTANTLY. So it must be causing her some discomfort now... it's been there for many months now and she never even seemed to notice it... but it looks like it's finally taking its toll on her. I'm starting to worry that she won't be with me much longer. I have a whole pharmacy of fishie drugs in a cabinet here for just about any fishie disease imagineable, but as with humans, there's not much one can do to treat a tumor... and one is hard pressed to find a vet who's willing to perform surgery on an inch-long fish. >>
I couldn't get her to eat earlier today either, which is ALWAYS a sign of serious trouble considering bettas are infamous for their monstrous appetites... especially this particular one...
And yeah, I'm gonna stop ranting about my little ex-psycho now. Making me sad.
So earlier this evening on Food Network there was an entire show dedicated solely to butter cream icing. Followed by one dedicated solely to caramel. And I swear, here and now... the next time I am anywhere near a Walmart, I am stocking up on Ben & Jerry's Karamel Sutra.
Yes, needless to say, I AM HUNGRY.
And this post kinda bounced around all over the place... so I suppose I'll wrap up and try to find some amusement to keep me awake.
[edit: no one told me about my dorky typo in this one... >> Netork. yeeeeeah.]
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 10/25/2005 08:37:00 PM
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wSunday, October 23, 2005 |
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feeling: groggy
listening to: Moriyama Naotarou - Itoshi Kimi e (To The One I Love)
Isn't this an interesting autumn?
I look out my window of my house nestled in forested hills, and at least 90% of the trees I see are still green. Only a couple red ones and some clusters of yellow thrown in. Then this morning's drive to and from church, a route which consists of 15 minutes on roads that wind through still more endless forested hills, revealed to me that the leaves in our area ARE at their peak colors right now after all. The scenery all around us was breathtaking... like the trees had all burst into flame. Just like I expect to see here every year.
So I don't know what the heck the deal is with the two or three hills I can see from my window that are still 90% green. Think they're clinging to summer. >> Idiots.
Also, this morning our resident Most Admirable Mother Deer Ever and her triplet fawns strolled right across our front yard, so close to the house we could've reached out the window and patted their heads. We're almost certain that same doe has a new set of triplets every year or two, and she's quite fearless; this isn't the first time in the past few years we've seen her bring her young this close to our house. The babies have lost their spots by now, but up close I could see that they were absolutely FLUFFY. *wanted to cuddle them* You don't often see deer that could actually be described as fluffy. Even their winter coats are kinda coarse looking.
And yeah, I'm tired. I ramble about weird things when I'm tired. Getting up this morning sucked even more than Sundays normally do because I went to bed at like 4:30 and the phone started ringing off the hook at bloody 6 am, an hour and a half before my alarm went off. >.> Stupid people.
More seriously... I'm kinda worried about Pixel. She hasn't been her usual psychotic self for the past few days... far too slow and lazy for her, and a little pale. She's never had a thing wrong with her in the year and a half I've had her, so I'm a bit concerned... I can't see any other symptoms or weirdnesses on her, except that big freaky lump behind her right gill... but she's had that for ages and it never seemed to bother her before. Maybe it's finally starting to catch up with her, whatever "it' is. :
In more entertaining news, I've moved my dream log online to a Livejournal account. If you want to check it out and be entertained (or scared), take a look. Leave comments. I like seeing people's reactions to my twisted dream world.
And that's it for today...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 10/23/2005 05:26:00 PM
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wMonday, October 17, 2005 |
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feeling: hungry x.x
listening to: FF9 OST - Crystal World
I have been in a bizarrely good mood lately. Not exactly sure how to explain that, but I feel better than I have in weeks... maybe months. Been sleeping better, as both a cause and an effect of that... takes me much less time to get to sleep now, then I sleep better and longer and still wake up a little earlier, and have more time to get things done. I've even had both the inspiration AND the motivation to draw and *gasp* write. o_o Been months and months and months since that happened...
Too bad I don't really have time to actually DO much writing or drawing. >_> My latest project has me going completely crazy trying to translate an entire audio interview of Suicide Ali for Tainted Reality, the radio show of a friend who plays lots of J-rock including BLOOD. I just received the audio files a couple days ago - answers to 21 questions - and have until Tuesday night to finish the translation. Meanwhile I also have ALL the lyrics for the next BLOOD album sitting around here waiting to receive their finishing touches and be sent to Kiwamu. *runs around in circles*
Yeah... I wanna write various things, I wanna draw various things, I wanna play FF7 and FF9, I wanna play Sims, there's several books and other works I wanna read, sites I wanna work on, non-BLOOD songs I wanna translate... and until these two projects are done I don't have time for any of it. ><
And yet, somehow, I'm STILL in a bizarrely good mood. O_o
Looking dangerously forward to Ohayocon '06 as well. For many reasons. >> << Not sure if I'll be doing any cosplays yet... nothing as crazy as last year, at any rate. Guess we shall see.
On a final note, I took a cute picture tonight of a certain punk making use of a certain new house...
Peekaboo! :D
And yes, I am easily amused. Especially when I'm in a good mood.
Gonna go to bed now though... stomach's complaining out of both tiredness and hunger... :x *eats a chocolate and wanders to bed*
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 10/17/2005 04:38:00 AM
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wThursday, October 13, 2005 |
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feeling: accomplished
listening to: Whose Line is it Anyway - Donkey Hoedown
Well, I spent pretty much the entire day getting my fish tanks remodeled. For most of the year they've been living in plantless tanks with gravel and hidey-hole rocks that were completely covered in algae, but they now have brand new gravel, brand new hidey-holes, brand new java moss, brand new fluorescent lights to help the moss stay healthy for once, and not a speck of algae left. Between that and the return of frozen food to their menu after several months of nothing but dry pellets, they both appear remarkably happy and fit right now.
Honestly, the difference I've seen in Phoenix in just the past few hours, since I got him into his revamped digs, has amazed me. For the past few months he's been acting like a betta on his last legs (or fins >>)... very sluggish, spent the majority of his time resting... and worst of all, it seemed his swim bladder was starting to fail. Namely, he couldn't "hover" in the water - if he stopped while swimming and sat still, he'd immediately start to sink. That's exactly how old Sekiray acted in the last few months before he died. But after the efforts of today... at first old Phoenix looked like he was going to go right back to old habits of sleeping the evening away, but then he started to explore the new decor... then on top of that he got a bellyful of bloodworms... and the next time I looked at him, he was bopping all around the tank, dancing around wagging his fins and barking at me like the little hyper punk I brought home from Aquarium Adventure nearly 3 years ago. He showed more activity in the past few hours than he used to show over the course of an entire day. Most amazingly, at one point I looked over and saw him "hovering" in midwater... and not sinking. Incredible the difference just a few hours in algae-free crystal clean water with nice green oxygenating plants can make. Even as I speak, over an hour after his usual bedtime, the little punk is still wiggledancing his butt off at me.
Sorry, got a little too excited there. >> I spoil my fish... shut up.
As for the teensy little snails... as it turned out, four of the little buggers decided to hitch a ride home with me. They're still in the same bag the moss came in, but I put fresh water in it along with Pixel's old algae-covered rock so they'd have something to nibble on while I decide what to do with them. I figure if they're still alive after a week or so, I might put two in each tank. Not sure though... 3 of them I think are big enough to escape hungry fishie jaws, but little Tiny is petite enough to easily slide right into even my puny female Pixel's mouth. So not sure if I should put the poor little cutie in a tank at all. >> Suppose I should wait and see if they even survive the week first though...
Anyway, after spending all day on all this stuff and ending up with even better and quicker results than I'd expected, I was proud enough to take pictures. >> They're all pretty big, so I'll just link them here. Examine if you so desire.
Phoenix in his new digs - note the spiffy new duplex. :P
Pixel in her new digs - I really like her new rock for some reason. It's all cute. >>
Phoenix chilling - he really only sat still long enough for me to take this picture. Soon as he spotted the camera he went off again, and photographing became impossible. Little punk.
Pixel telling off the camera - is that not the most evil and "grrr"-y expression you've ever seen on a fish? :P
And now, I shall introduce the snails! *music* And since they're all new and cool and stuff, I'm not gonna bother linking. You're gonna look whether you want to or not. :D
Yes, that's a dime for size comparison. >> The little brown football-shaped blob next to it, obviously, is the snail; tail end is pointing straight down. This is one of the middle-sized ones.
And this, believe it or not, is the biggest of the bunch. I didn't realize at the time, but the smallest one, who I keep calling Tiny >>, was hitching a ride on this big guy's shell when I took the picture. Can't really see it well enough to notice though... so for the sake of reference, you can take my word for it that Tiny is literally no longer than the height of that dude's ear on the dime. o.o
And that is all for now, I think...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 10/13/2005 01:45:00 AM
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wTuesday, October 11, 2005 |
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feeling: headache... bleh
listening to: Miyavi - Pop 'n Roll Koushien (Baseball)
FINALLY got a chance to restock on fish tank supplies in Columbus today. New hidey-holes that aren't totally covered in algae, new java moss for them to play in, new thermometers that stick on their tanks, new frozen kibbles for them to slurp on for dinner, even fluorescent light bulbs for their lamps to keep their moss healthier and not produce so much extra heat in the room. AND I got a new tank. o_o 5.5 gallons, just with a glass top for now... thinking of getting the filtration and BioSpira and all the other necessary accessories later, when I actually have a fish to put in it. Still need to figure out where to put it too, of course.
And yes... I ALMOST did get a new fish to put in it too. Pretty little white boy with a kind of opalescent pale blue sheen. But after admiring him for a few minutes I wandered off to look for other stuff, and when I came back for him he was gone. T.T Blast the rest of that store's patronage for being more impulsive than me. >>
I did, however, discover an interesting little surprise after we got home and I started getting my new stuff put away. I'm not putting the new java moss in the tanks until I do their full water changes tomorrow, so I filled the bag with water and set it under one of my new fluorescent lights until I'm ready for it. Then a little later I looked up at the bag and spotted a little brown spot tangled in the moss. I thought it was a bit of gravel at first, as it's common for a few bits of gravel to get stuck in the moss when it's bagged... but then it moved. O.o
So now I have a teeny tiny little snail in addition to all my new goodies. :D
I'm not sure what to do with it though. It's obviously aquatic, so I can't just toss it outside in good conscience... I could put it in one of the tanks, but I've been told that snails are HORRIBLY messy, and since neither of my tanks are filtered, I don't need that added hassle. On the other hand, this thing is teeeeeeeeny tiny. Just barely too big to fit into the mouths of my bettas, if that's any indication (though they'd probably still try to eat it >>). So I can't really see how it could make THAT big a mess. And it could make an interesting little toy for either of my punks, I'm sure... hmmm... would certainly be amusing to see what they'd make of it...
Eh, not sure why I'm even trying to make plans. I'll probably just end up washing the poor little thing right down the drain tomorrow when I rinse out the new moss he's hiding in right now. :\ Oh well...
In other cool news, I have a peppermint candle. *.* And key lime flavored chocolate. :P And a really cool wildcats calendar... and ooh ooh! I FINALLY HAVE WHITE TIGER SLIPPERS!! *dances* I chased those things around various Walmarts for literally YEARS, but they either kept running out or never had my size... and now I finally have a pair! Muhahahaha! *ahem*
Sooooo now I have a total of 4 pairs of novelty slippers. >> Tigers, white tigers, Snoopy, and psychedelic acid-tripping piggies. Came sooooo close to buying this one pair I saw a while back too... they weren't shaped like anything, they were just really majorly fuzzy and colorful and cute... I only resisted cause I didn't feel like spending the money. I think I'm a budding fetishist. *snort*
Anyway, on a random note, I thought I'd archive this quote I found at a Dir en Grey community that amused the heck out of me. Some kid was looking for suggestions on which DeG song to present to her class for some kind of project, and a lot of people suggested Dead Tree... and this comment came up:
"i have a feeling that, if you choose dead tree, the entire class and the teacher will give a dumbstruck stare when kyo yells, "RADFHAKSDAKDFGNADKDF" after the nice clean picking."
That amused me way more than it should have. Cause it's so bloody DEAD ON. >.>
Anyway... eh... suppose I should try to finish translating the newest batch of lyrics tonight. Or something. *procrastinates*
[EDIT: ok, actually I've just discovered that there are TWO little tiny snails in this bag. O.O Both alive and well... so yay, a pet for each fishie! or as kitty suggested, I could put them in a separate bowl and see if they breed... >> <<]
[EDIT 2: check that... we have Snaily Survivor #3! *flop* the new one is absolutely miniscule... I think it could confortably fit inside the circumference of my little female betta's eye o___o *wants to luvvle and snuggle it but it's too tiny*]
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 10/11/2005 12:13:00 PM
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wSaturday, October 01, 2005 |
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feeling: weird...
listening to: D - Angelic Blue
Well, it's 3:30 in the morning and I'm so wide awake it shouldn't be legal. That's what happens when I take naps in the evening. So I figured I'd start my night of looking for stuff with which to occupy myself by posting something nice and random here.
I realized tonight that I've been feeling really... weird for several weeks now. Not really sure how to explain it, but... well, anyone who knows me can attest that I'm hopelessly lazy and unmotivated more often than not. Lately, though, I'm even more lethargic... yet restless at the same time. A lot of it is probably because it's been a long time since I really slept well... I'm tired more often than I used to be, and I've had more headaches in the past few weeks than I'd had probably all year until recently. Not bad ones, just annoying, but I still find it weird... haven't had headache problems since college. I think all of this really hit me just over the past couple days, after Kiwamu sent me a new batch of lyrics to translate and I just have not felt like working on them. Usually I can't wait to dig into projects like that, but this time I can't bring myself to get into it. Not that I don't want to or dislike it, I just can't motivate my brain to wrap around the work this time. Over the course of a few nights I did get them done, pretty much... just need to proofread them once or twice more... but still.
Like I said, it's hard to explain. Probably has a lot to do with not sleeping well... but I guess another part of it might be that the activity level in my daily life has dropped in recent weeks. For a while there I was doing a lot of bouncing back and forth between BLOOD translations, professional translations (sorta >>), obligations arising from Aaron's death, community choir and the festival, helping more around the house when dad hurt his arm, and some other stuff... but lately things have really been slacking again. Normally I wouldn't complain, as lazy is my way of life... but I dunno, maybe I was getting used to it. So now I feel lazy and restless at the same time. You'd think the sudden lull in activity and restlessness would make me more motivated to work on stuff, like those lyrics, but heh... always knew I was weird. >>
Anyway... another recent change in routine, though much more pleasant, is the coming of autumn. The trees are starting to show signs of turning and the weather is blessedly cool compared to the record-breaking heat we had for a while earlier in the summer. I even had to break out my favorite decade-old sweatshirt to start sleeping in again. Yeah, call me weird, but I love cool weather. Even downright cold weather. Partially because of how it changes the entire environment... something about cold winter air makes the air so much clearer, and the stars so much brighter than in summer... and I'm a sucker for a glittering snow-covered country landscape. But I think an even bigger part of it is the bliss of curling up with good old-fashioned body-and-soul-warming comforts like cuddly sweatshirts and fuzzy slippers and heavy blankets and hot chocolate and warm snuggles (>>) and etc etc... I dunno... it kinda gives the feeling of beating the elements or something. I mean, warmth is so much easier to appreciate when it's found among a cold environment. Besides, who doesn't love those classic winter comforts?
Of course, it'll be a couple months yet before I get to really take advantage of all that, but the recent cooling weather is a nice start.
So, now it's 4 am... killing time nicely here... >> Wonder what else I can occupy myself with... hmm. Suppose I should go over the new lyrics again. Or maybe I'll just amuse myself with fanfiction and flash games and other nice mindless amusements like I've been rotting my brain with for the past month or two.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 10/01/2005 03:30:00 AM
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wMonday, September 26, 2005 |
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feeling: second wind... times four >.>
listening to: The TRAX - Rhapsody
Ok... so someone was looking out for me Sunday, and it wasn't as bad as I had projected. Dead tired I was, all day, after only sleeping for about an hour and then only fitfully napping in the afternoon... but the depression was replaced by... crankiness. Hey, to me that's improvement. And anyway, it quickly faded, and by late evening life went back to being about as decent as it can be given the circumstances.
Lots of factors kept the day from ultimate sucking. First, dad actually made stuffed french toast for breakfast. o_o He'd only made them once before, and that was not long after I'd specifically mentioned that I'd been craving it after seeing endless IHOP commercials advertising it. I very rarely eat breakfast, and for a long time just avoided it altogether, but I do make an effort to eat on Sunday mornings when I have to get up before 8 am anyway. That's the only morning of the week when dad cooks breakfast, so I try not to let it go to waste. Anyway, yeah... I'm sleep drunk and rambly. Bear with me. >>
So the stuffed french toast rocked... church was pretty normal... afternoon sucked as my nap wasn't very successful and I woke up cranky... but then in the evening a combination of Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey and a healthy dose of online Kitty company made the day worth being awake for. And I'm still awake at 6:30 am not only because I got all hooked on the story she spent much of the night writing, but also because a certain Asian dork pounced me online just shortly before I was ready to log out, and for some evil reason talking to him always wakes me up. >_> Punk. But now he's gone and the night/morning is winding down, and I am finally ready to go to bed. Won't be surprised if I'm out till sundown... got a couple nights to catch up on.
*glomps kitty cause she rocks and cause I can*
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/26/2005 06:43:00 AM
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wSunday, September 25, 2005 |
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feeling: frustrated and dreading
listening to: X Japan - Rusty Nail is stuck in my head
Who else has noticed that I only seem to post on Sundays anymore? Of course, in my mind it's still Saturday because I haven't gone to bed yet, but Blogger will call this a Sunday post. Anyway, yeah, interesting trend I thought.
So. Tomorrow... is going to suck. Really going to suck. Not because of anything that's going on, as I have nothing planned except church and a nap, and choir practice if I feel like it... but because of the mood it's going to put me in. I've been mildly depressed all week as it is, and my moods plummet through the floor when I'm sleep deprived. Which is exactly what I'm going to be all day tomorrow, just like every Sunday. Add that to the depression, and I'm gonna be a miserable, useless lump all day.
Just giving fair warning. Not that anyone's likely to both see this before the day's over AND give a flying flip, but you know. Just in case.
In other news, my payment for the two translations I did for Kiwamu's clients is now in the mail, so I expect to get it early in the week. He's also told me that the first of the two companies has more stuff they want translated now, so he plans to give me that information soon... wonder how that'll turn out compared to the first job I did for them.
Also, I got to see FFVII: Advent Children the other day. Enjoyed it greatly. I'm sure that was chiefly because I'm still hopelessly addicted to the 8-year-old game. There was a LOT of reference to it in the movie, as sequels tend to go... so while I'd happily recommend the movie to anyone who knows the game pretty well, those who haven't played FF7 yet should probably do so before viewing. In fact, they should do so anyway. Because it's awesome.
I'd go into better detail about what made the film cool and what made it less than cool, but I don't feel like it.
Other news... I've been working on increasing my J-rock collection again. Looking for more obscure stuff this time, kinda... except X Japan, which I'm getting a lot of too. But I found some folks who actually have stuff like Clavier and Waive and even Se'ikspia, so yeah... getting some interesting goodies. Also looking into stuff I've been meaning to look into for ages now, like 12012, Metronome, Kagrra, etc... and new stuff from bands I like but didn't have much of before... so yeah, the collection is certainly growing here.
And in case you couldn't tell, I don't really have anything interesting to talk about. Not that I ever do, but heh... like I said, still on this little depression kick. But my parents went to town today and came back with random Ben & Jerry's for me, so maybe I can munch on that tomorrow to help make the day slightly less sucky... we'll see I guess.
I should just go to bed. But I know it won't do any good. Every night I go to bed, usually dead tired and utterly grateful just to close my eyes, only to lie there wide awake for hours with a million things poking at my mind. Usually after a couple hours I get frustrated enough to want to just give up and come back to the computer and type up a rant, not unlike this one, about my stupid screwed up sleep schedule and all the junk running through my mind making it worse... but somehow I always manage to fight off the urge and just give it another hour or two, and finally get to sleep. Usually can still manage a decent-length nap, since nothing in my schedule prohibits me from sleeping all afternoon... not that I like doing it every single day... but tomorrow I'm not so lucky. I'll go to bed here soon and probably remain awake right until my alarm goes off at 7:40. And then... well, we all know the rest.
And this post has all been nice and random and scattered. Did I mention I don't feel like thinking, or doing much of anything else at the moment? I think the only thing I feel like right now is a dark, quiet corner with a plushie clutched in my arms and my playlist of angsty ballads pumping through the speakers. But at least, for now, I've ranted.
I'll get over it sooner or later, I'm sure. But tomorrow is still gonna suck.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/25/2005 02:43:00 AM
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wSunday, September 11, 2005 |
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feeling: tired... thoughtful... bored...
listening to: Lion King Musical - Endless Night
The Salt Creek Valley Festival has passed for another year. As usual, it was tiny and pretty pathetic. I mean, how much can you really expect from a festival that takes place in a town consisting of like, 3 streets? But one new thing they had this year was a stand that sold fried cheese... o.o They had fried green tomatoes and hot apple dumplings too... it was a tough choice. x_x Almost - ALMOST - made me wish I'd stayed there until the dinner hour, just so I could munch on more of that carnie food I missed out on at the fair last month. But there was seriously NOTHING else there worth doing in the meantime, so oh well.
Choir was, following the yearly trend, not as painful as the previous year. Still hot, but not as much so, and at least this year we were under a roof so we had shade from the sun. Also, I was in the back row of the risers and there was a rail behind me that I could lean back on. >> << Gave me a chance to see Jess again too, which I'm lucky to do more than 3 times a year anymore, so that was nice. We still always find stuff to reminisce and joke about on those rare occasions when we see each other. I miss her... too bad real life had to erase any chances of us being really close friends again.
And oh dear God... as soon as I got to the last couple sentences of that paragraph, my shuffled ~1500-song playlist started playing a song I keep forgetting I have... Michael W. Smith's Friends. Of all the songs, of all the times... *mutters* and yeah, I doubt anyone else knows why that's so freaking appropriate to the subject... and why it makes me want to curl up in a corner somewhere and block out the world and people around me all over again. >_<
*wills the song to end*
Ahh, David Bowie. Muuuuuuch better. >>
Anyway... heh... I came here to rant about something else entirely, but now I forget what it was. Actually, I didn't forget, I just don't really want to now.
So in random news, today I finished reading all that's available of the most recent installment in Missy Good's Journey of Soulmates fanfic series. Read most of those books over a year ago, but a new one came out since then, and that's the one I finally finished today. Well, all but the last chapter, which isn't up yet. >.< Anyway... so I guess now I can move on and get back into reading her Dar and Kerry uber fic series, which I started yeeeeears ago when it was only 2 books long (it's like, 6 or 7 books and several vignettes now). And no, I don't really expect anyone to know what I'm talking about. >> But for now I'll just say that the reason I get so hooked on her fiction is that the main characters in it have the kind of relationship I only wish was possible in real life so I'd maybe have a chance at finding something like it someday... and I guess I'm at a point in my life now where that appeals to me even more than it used to. Maybe in a masochistic way, but heh, what can you do...
But before I dig myself any deeper there...
Hmm, been ages since I put any kind of betta rant in here, hasn't it? So. I've realized recently that my little femme fishie Pixel is... funny shaped. O.o She's like, all lumpy from her head back to around her gills. I hope it's not a tumor or anything... but she certainly seems about as happy and healthy and psychotic as a single inch of fishie can possibly be, so I guess I shouldn't worry...
And I can't really think of anything else I care to talk about here, so I suppose that ends this week's edition of random whatever.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/11/2005 11:33:00 PM
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wTuesday, September 06, 2005 |
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feeling: uh...
listening to: BLOOD - Awakening
Well, so much for Katrina losing intensity and changing course, I guess... :s Nasty stuff there...
But on a more amusing note, I was sitting here screwing around with various stuff on the computer, trying to decide on which random amusing activity to indulge myself in for a while... Playstation, Nintendo (yeeeah old school baby), reading fanfic, reading real literature >>, doodling, long ranty journal-ing, or of course, Simming. And then, for absolutely no apparent reason, my CDROM tray opened itself. It has never done that since it was installed.
I consider it a sign. *pops in Sims CD*
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 9/06/2005 05:25:00 PM
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wTuesday, August 30, 2005 |
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feeling: tired
listening to: B'z - Konya Tsuki no Mieru Oka ni (Tonight, at the Hill Where We Can See the Moon)
That song has been stuck in my head for days. >.o I really like it... just no idea why it's so insistent on clinging to me lately.
Anyway, Kiwamu told me the company I translated that catalog for will be reviewing the catalog's final design this week, and then I'll know how much and by what method they intend to pay me. Then he told me he has another client at the moment, a company dealing in natural resources, that's seeking a translation for their company profile, and that he'd recommended me for the job again. He also said something about the possibility of an actual part-time position in it for me with this one... though I'm not sure how that would work with them being over there and me being over here... >> but still. Always knew if I could stick with the BLOOD translating gig long enough, no matter how certain idiots treated me and my friends like dirt and generally ticked me off along the way, it would lead to more and bigger opportunities. I would say I owe Kiwamu for this, but I've been working for free for him now for over a year. >>
...And he just pounced me online and greeted me with "hello, part time job" >.> Interesting...
Anywaaaay... how about that Hurricane Katrina? x.x I was starting to get kinda worried about that whole deal over the weekend. They said just a day or so before its predicted Louisiana landfall that it was Category 5, which means what... 185+ mph winds? +_+ And it was due to hit the heavily populated major port and etc. city of New Orleans... all that damage... But then they said right before it hit land, it fell to category 4. Then, by the time it actually hit a populated area, which turned out to be a much smaller town in Louisiana, it had fallen to category 2. Which is still pretty heavy and destructive, but... dang. I knew hurricanes normally lose a lot of their force when they leave the sea and reach land, but that was a major drop and change of course...
I know, random thing for me to talk about, especially living in Ohio where it'll be nothing more than a prolonged thunderstorm by the time it reaches my neck of the woods... but I guess that seemed kinda miraculous to me. Couldn't help getting the impression that millions of desperate prayers had been answered.
And in more mundane news, I've made some more progress in my room. Restocked the beanie shelves in the plushie corner, hauled out two more large bins full of stuff, and also managed to clear off and drag out the antique hutch desk that was in the far corner. Now I just need to figure out how to juggle everything else around in order to get that reclining chair in here and keep the TV viewable from both it and the bed... and figure out where to put all these little cool random knick-knacks that were salvaged from the 2 tables and 1 desk I've gotten rid of... so many possibilities, so little clue as to which would make the most sense...
And yeah, it's late and I'm sleepy. So bed it is.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 8/30/2005 05:04:00 AM
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wSunday, August 21, 2005 |
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feeling: sleepy
listening to: Suicide Ali - Ai Subeki Shikeidai
Well. This past week has been special on more levels than I feel like counting.
There were some highs... some great laughs, moments of pure contentment, the completion of that catalog translation for Kiwamu's client, even some progress made on tablet art pieces I started months ago and left to collect dust. And there were plenty of lows... some random uselessness, helplessness, loneliness, unexplained depression... and a marked shortage of sleep. And when I did sleep, there were dreams that were weird even for me. There were nightmares, including one that had to be the most painful and terrifying thing my mind in sleep has ever yielded. There was nostalgia, as I found myself poking again into interests I haven't touched in years, and as some of my long-time good friends pack up and head off to college. And there were things that don't really fit into any category... like the new pastor and his family spending an evening here, and my dad taking a nasty injury to his right arm, keeping him home from work and forcing me and my mother to handle more stuff around the house.
I blame the fact that I couldn't sleep last night on all of the above. But the really weird thing is that I didn't even want to sleep. I went to bed only because I knew I'd have to get up for church in 3 hours, though I was only barely tired, and just lay there wide awake as my mind flitted all over the place, picking up memories and moments from the past week and throwing them around at random... and I didn't want it to stop. Not that it was an entirely pleasant experience, but I wanted to lie there and be contemplative. I wanted to laugh again at the good memories and retreat within myself when the more painful ones took over. I knew I would regret it the next day. I knew thinking of stuff like that can cause the soul more harm than good. Thinking is dangerous. But still I lay there all morning thinking. Smiling, hurting, wondering, worrying, reflecting.
I don't know why I didn't want to sleep. I don't even know why I'm posting about this here. No reason anyone should really care to know about it. It wasn't necessarily a bad thing, though it wasn't exactly good either... since when I finally did drift off for about an hour, I managed to oversleep... and of course, I'm paying for it now by being unbelievably tired. But that's nothing new. Not that big a deal to be in a reflective mood.
So why am I posting this? I don't know, maybe because it all left me kind of... muddled. There are things I'm confused about... things I wish I understood, but probably never will. Things I wish others could understand, but they can't seem to, or maybe just refuse to. Things that should make me happy but only make me feel more hurt and alone... or is it the other way around? Hence the confusion. It recently dawned on me that there are some aspects of my life I've been taking for granted, and that are far more complicated than I previously realized. Things that... maybe I've been trying to see with a little too much optimism, when there are really just too many factors, far more than I saw at first, pointing to the very high likelihood that it will all only leave me even more lost and hopeless than I was before.
I don't know. Maybe I just need my nap. It won't clear the confusion, but it'll give me somewhere to go that I won't have to think about it for a while. And fortunately, this time, I AM tired enough to sleep and actually want to. So I'm gonna go take my nap now. Maybe things will make more sense when I wake up. Actually, I know they won't... but maybe sleep will clear them from my mind for a while...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 8/21/2005 01:09:00 PM
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wSunday, August 14, 2005 |
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feeling: sleepy
listening to: silence
Yeah... been kinda clinging to my Livejournal lately for some reason. Poor old blog's feeling neglected. So much happens and it doesn't get first dibs on all the news anymore. So I figured I'd throw out a catch-up post here, or whatever.
Been slightly depressed recently, for starters. Mostly owing to the death of a childhood friend of mine, one of the 14 Marines from that Lima unit killed by a roadside bomb in Iraq on August 3. Feeling a little better now though, since he's been laid to rest... but the whole thing is still on my mind for a significant part of every day. I'm sure I don't hurt over this nearly as much as his family and others who were closer to him than I was, but still it's given me a lot to think about. And I imagine it'll take a little more time yet for my thought process to return to relative normalcy.
That's not really the only explanation for this little depression kick, but that's nothing new, so moving on...
In other news, I'm currently working on my first paying translation project. It's a catalog for a Japanese company that makes motors and similar machinery, and one of the people responsible for putting it together was a graphic designer I happen to know as Kiwamu, leader of BLOOD, the band I've been translating for since early last year. When he was designing the graphics for their catalog, the company told him they wanted an English translation for it, so he recommended me to them, and it went from there. And since Kiwamu works in a graphic design company and thus does many projects of this sort for various companies, some of which also occasionally express interest in English translations, this may not be the last offer he presents to me. I always had a feeling sticking it out as this band's translator would start to pay off someday, somehow. Certain events of the past few months would've forced me to quit and walk out if not for that. But we won't talk about that here... it's in the past... and if I can stay with this now and finish this catalog in time, a nice-sized monetary gift and the possibility of other similar opportunities in the future are in store for me.
Anyway, I missed the fair again this year. I keep forgetting our wussy little county fair is only one week, not two. -_- Poor Dumplin' got sick anyway, so she didn't need to be out tromping around in the blazing heat all day... and our fair is not the kind of thing that's enjoyable on ANY level if you're there alone. You need a friend to make fun of everything with. >> But oh well... the Salt Creek Valley Festival is in about a month, and I'll be there as a community choir member again this year (practices started 2 weeks ago). It's even smaller and more pathetic than the county fair - vastly so, in fact - but at least it has a few good concession stands with fair-type food, which is pretty much the only reason I ever want to go to the county fair anymore anyway.
And hmmm... oh, my windows finally have new trim and my blinds are supposed to be delivered on Monday. *.* Gonna take a while to get used to sleeping in the (relative) dark after having nothing but bedsheets as curtains for so many years, and then having nothing at all for the past 3 months or so. Also, I finally caved and ordered some stuff from Lamoon, which should arrive in the coming week as well. I couldn't resist - everything was 25% off for one week only. T.T
And I guess that's all I can think of for the moment.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 8/14/2005 02:00:00 AM
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wSunday, July 31, 2005 |
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feeling: blank
listening to: BLOOD - Blind
Ok. I have developed a fascination with Ville Valo. He's the vocalist and frontman of HIM, for the less versed out there. The man possesses every possible quality one could desire in a male: not only is he hot and the owner of a remarkably deep voice... he also has moments of 1)cute, 2) fluffy, 3) cuddly, and 4)absolute dork. AND in several of the pictures I uncovered last night in my hunt for archive-worthy eye candy of the man, he kinda looks like Roger. :3
A few of my long-time readers may remember back in October or November 2003 when I made an entire blog post to serve the purpose of being a Matsu Takako album, complete with all my favorite pictures of her. Of course, within a year most of those pictures were reduced to dead links. *pout* But that is not going to happen this time. Because after I create my little Ville Valo album here, I'm going to actually save the pictures. >.> Some of them I had to save and re-upload anyway...
So here we go. Ville at his finest. To me, anyway.
Intense gaze and the craziest tattoo ever
Speaking of tattoos, THAT had to hurt x.x
He has THE most piercing eyes...
Looking all classical o.o
Solitary Man single cover
Ok, so he looks sort of Michael Jackson-ish in this one >.>
And he is dead... but... not
Did I mention he plays bass? Instant points with Becky *.*
Posing... with... things?
Kindred spirit of Fu-ki, obviously... toothpick much?
And he seems to like roses... for breakfast
Signing autographs and looking all vampire-y
Who is he reminding me of here? O.o
Looking moody and pensive is hard when you're wearing a top hat
He's also furry :D
Again... can we say TOOTHPICK? Someone feed this boy!
Pulling off hot AND cute in ways that shouldn't be possible
Doing it again...
... and other times he's just plain cute *steals hat*
Speaking of cute, he has a fuzzy! o.o
Cute again ^^
And now we're just bordering on dorky :P
Speaking of dorky... >.>
Ahem... channeling the Fu-ki, anyone?
Riiiiight... just look at all that hideous body fat...
And it is the true proof of the dork - the :P!
"Whoooo's a good little bassist? That's riiiiight! MIGE IS! *pat*"
Nice professional studio shot, and then CUDDLE :P
More cuddling...
Cuddling and looking like the Fonz O.o
And finally... drummer lovin'
That's all for now. Might add more in the future. Might not. I spent enough hours last night gleaning all these off the great big internet. >.x
And now I need something cold and sugary...
[EDIT: forgot to add... Ville Valo SIMS SKIN! XD]
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 7/31/2005 07:52:00 PM
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wFriday, July 29, 2005 |
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feeling: arg >_<
listening to: Malice Mizer - Apres Midi [E-style]
Ooook... need to rant in a place that most people in the BLOOD fandom don't know about. Have fun reading. >>
So my copy of the new BLOOD CD came in today. As always, my translations of the lyrics and concept story are included in the booklet. I didn't get around to looking closely at the booklet until this evening, though. And as always, when I did, it brought to my attention all the GLARING mistakes in said translations that I should never have let happen. -_- Actually, there are only 2, and one of them might never be noticed by anyone who doesn't understand both English and Japanese. But to me they're glaring and could've been prevented, and things would make a lot more sense if I had.
The more noticeable mistake is in the translated lyrics to the song Awakening, right in the last verse. And it's actually the one I don't really blame myself for. I did make a dumb mistake that could've been fixed simply by changing one word, but instead (or in addition) they decided to edit the whole line, so we end up with something like "The skies above sadly reflect the past that I was cruelly taken everything." What the feck? >_>; Yeeees... I blame them for that one. >>; For one thing, like I said, they should've only had to change one word to fix my mistake... and for another, THE DORK SHOULD TALK TO ME WHEN HE WANTS TO CORRECT THINGS IN ENGLISH!! He usually does for newsletters and site content and stuff, so why shouldn't he do it for LYRICS that actually define the band's image and music style?? Seriously. >>
Anyway, the other mistake is less likely to be found, but it's much more severe. To me anyway. There's this poem thing right in the front of the booklet... it's part of a continuing story that the band is writing to go along with their vampire concept, and a new continuation of it appears in each of their new CDs. Anyway, the Japanese and English versions of the poem are on the same page this time, so I was looking closer at them for the purpose of transcribing it in romaji... and I realized that an ENTIRE LINE from the original poem was missing from the English translation. And I have no idea how it happened. >_< I never miss entire lines... if nothing else because I proofread everything I translate five million times before I call it finished. And I can't find the translation I sent him in my email account, because I sent it to him via IM... that I remember because he asked me if it would be ok to edit out some connecting word at the end of one line, or something. So I guess it's possible that he accidentally cut an entire line... but what bugs me is I don't remember translating that particular line. >.x But I also don't know why he didn't say anything to me about it... if he (and/or Fu-ki) takes the time to check my actual lyric translations and "fix" any mistakes, why wouldn't they do that for the story poem things?
So yeah... I don't know who's at fault for that one. Probably me. >> Cause if I translated that line I'd surely remember it... I mean, I distinctly remember translating the lines before it and after it. >.x But why didn't he say anything to me? Surely he checked it...
*tears hair out*
Oh well... c'est la vie and all that. Maybe no one will notice. --;;
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 7/29/2005 11:24:00 PM
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feeling: slightly sleepy
listening to: Parasite Eve - Somnia Memorias is stuck in my head
Decision. If I ever manage to come into possession of my long desired blue merle Great Dane, I don't care what gender it is - I am SO naming it Miyavi.
Yeeeeeah, I've been reading through old journal entries and comments tonight. Cookies to any who remember that entry. >> << Don't ask why I decided to post here of all places... that decision was random even for me. I might have another smallish rant to post at a more private journal too, but I might be too tired to get to that tonight, and tomorrow I might not feel like it anymore. Plus I'll probably end up going to Willard's grad party tomorrow, since he'll hate me forever if I don't, then after that is the ice cream supper at church and I am rarely one to pass up ice cream. Wish they'd make more flavors than vanilla and pineapple, but oh well. However, if they think they're going to rope me into working at that dinner, they've got another thing coming. They've forced me into the roles of Sunday school secretary, Bible school teacher, and sole-person-in-charge-of-all-puppet-events at that church in just the past month, all without even telling me what I was getting into or giving me time to agree or disagree. Kinda tired of it.
Anyway, no more ranting about that.
Today's been a weird day. Nothing really happened per se, I've just spent all of it sitting around here zoning out and I'm not sure why. Maybe tomorrow will make more sense. Doubt it though, considering... things. Also, for some reason, both today and yesterday felt like Saturday to me... and Wednesday needs to hurry up and get here. >> <<
Speaking of hurrying up, I guess I've decided on what to actually put on my BLOOD order form, so I need to get that made up and sent off. Told dork boy the other day that I'd be sending him $41 soon, and he replied "Ok, $41000 is good ;)". He's a dork. He also owes me lots of magazines.
Also, caviar will keep for up to 6 months in the freezer and 2-3 weeks otherwise. >> <<
And yeah... this post is about as random as they come. Like I said, been zoney all day. Which means no attention span.
Oh, also, click here and help me out at Mystic Wars. That's all you have to do - just click, and I get gold. Or if you want to sign up and join the game, I get even more gold. And still more when you create characters and level them up. *_* But I don't expect anyone to do any of that, so oh well. Just thought I'd mention it. Actually getting kinda bored with that game, but I still play for lack of anything better to do. Plus there are decent prizes at stake this month. o.o
Anyway... speaking of recommendations, Friendly Hostility is a cool webcomic. The sense of humor in it somehow reminds me of Queen of Wands, and sure enough, the QoW artist has done a guest strip or two in FH. And of course, Fox and Collin are adorable. But I'm probably about the only person who would think that, so don't blame me if you read the comic and are weirded out. You've been warned. >>
Ok, it's been half an hour and I'm ready to sleep now. Tomorrow should be interesting.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 7/16/2005 04:20:00 AM
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wWednesday, July 13, 2005 |
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feeling: full
listening to: Schwarz Stein - Emergence of Silence
I LOVE THIS SONG. *float*
Anyway... >> Prepare for more completely random and pointless babbling. Just because all my blogs and journals are feeling neglected lately. But then again, so is pretty much everything else I ever had my hands in at any point in time. All my former projects, games, works in progress, both on and off the computer. I can't even draw anymore. I tried last night and... eww. Serious eww. >.> But I do like the outline I completed at Subeta oekaki a few weeks ago, before my computer died, preventing me from finishing the drawing. I should upload that lineart, or even color it in Photoshop. I actually like it.
Anyway, one old thing I have randomly dragged out of the dust and been working on for a couple days is my first FF7 fic series. Such as it is. The first book is done, the second is about half done, and the 3 or 4 I had planned for after that are still in the brainstorming stages. And rather than add any more to them or at least do more brainstorming, all I've done in the past... 2 or 3 years at least... is repeatedly proofread and edit what I've already written. Last night I finished edit #4534203498 (give or take a dozen >>) of the first book, and I started on a book 2 edit today, but then the power randomly went out for no reason and I can't remember what I saved and didn't save before it happened. Oh well.
But all of this has made me want to play FF7 again. And do FF7 fanart, especially artwork for my fics. That's what I attempted last night, and yeeeeah... massive failure. Anyway, been wanting to play FF9 again too, for some weird reason. Next I'll probably start listening to the FF7/9 soundtracks in the evenings again. Used to listen to those things constantly. I even played them every day for a while in the discman I used to carry around between classes and stuff at OSU. Woohoo, obsessive.
And wanna know something funny? The other day I found that I had an email from BLOOD's former guest guitarist/vocalist, Noa. FROM MAY 15. X.x The little punk sent it to an email address I only created for the purpose of registering a third Photobucket account... I never planned to check the thing and I had no idea he knew about it! Don't even know why I finally did check it the other day... but anyway, yeah. His own fault that it took me 2 months to reply to him. So there. >___>
On a related note, I remembered recently that I HAVE posted Japanese text here at Blogger before and it worked. In the Fanime setlist on my BLOOD blog. But why I can't get it to work on THIS blog, I don't know. >< Figured it was just a font issue, but I tried manually changing that and it still didn't work. Oh well... most of the other blogs and journals I have are Japanese-compatible, so I can always play with those.
I need to practice Japanese more too. I've probably forgotten how to write more than half of the 500 or so kanji I learned at OSU. *slaps self* Should be trying to practice speech more too, but heh... not as though I have a lot of opportunities to do that without looking completely nuts. :p Ooh, I can break out and reinstall my instructional CDROMs from college now that I have a working drive again... wouldn't be speaking, but it's listening and listening is good... could use the vocabulary review too...
Hmm, what else...
I need to send my order for BLOOD's new album in the near future. Been looking forward to this album for months. Especially the track Forever Lost (formerly known as Gothic), which was FRIGGIN' COOL when they played it in Mexico. And I need to see who the heck wrote the lyrics for Se Lever. They looked to me like a work of Kaede when I translated them a couple months ago, and I need to find out whether I'm right about that. Just so I can say I can tell which member wrote which songs based solely on the style of the original Japanese lyrics. >> << Shut up.
Oh, and I might actually have blinds on my windows in the near future. o_o Think my parents ordered them the other night... ooooo, been a couple months since I had anything covering my windows... and last time I did it was a butchered bedsheet. Bliiiiiiiinds. *stalks blinds.com*
And I can't think of any other random ramble material... so guess that's it for today.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 7/13/2005 05:50:00 PM
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