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I dunno how you found this, but alas, here you are. So enjoy the frightening fruits of my troubled little brain.
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wSunday, May 23, 2004 |
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feeling: frustrated... the hurt-and-confused kind, not the WTF???!?!?!!!?? kind
listening to: Jordan Hill - Remember Me This Way, because I'm a masochist
Well, I got nothing accomplished this weekend. So much for all that work I was hoping to have done BEFORE taking off for San Jose. And don't you love those weekends that start out awesome and turn into just pure misery? I swear, I've run the full gamut of emotions this weekend.
I did go to a linguistics talk on Friday in my afternoon downtime, which was good - easy 10% of my grade just for sitting in a half hour lecture. Then me and Willard raced this huge nasty tornado- and hail-producing storm home from campus... my nephy was supposed to be waiting for me at home, but since the weather and traffic made us late, by the time I got there he'd gone home. So I spent Friday evening doing absolutely nothing of value. Talked with my parents, watched TV, wasted time online, listened to BLOOD, rapped with Dumplin' a bit... might've done a little doodling, or tried to...
Something woke me up not long after 8:00 Saturday morning, and as I gained consciousness the first thing I heard was Dad talking on the phone downstairs to my sis-in-law about Nephy spending the day with us. Later I found out that it didn't make much difference to either of them, so sis-in-law decided to ask Nephy what he wanted - something like "Do you want to go to grandma's house today?" And his response, apparently, was "Uh huh! And see Becky!" It befuddles me how much that kid adores me... anyway, he came over, he wouldn't let me out of his sight for 10 seconds... seriously, any time I tried to step out of the room I'd hear "Where'd Becky go?" "Is Becky coming?" or something along those lines. Then the parents took him along to do some work at the former home of my great uncle who died recently, and meanwhile I went to Dumplin's place to swim, which was awesome. I'm gonna be over there, like, every other day this summer. x) I got a sunburn too, but only on my thighs and shins, bizarrely... anyway. So then I took her to work and went home, and the parents and Nephy were just getting home too, and the little squirt insisted on helping me carry some of my stuff inside (I took lots of CDs, my stereo, art folder, and some other stuff). Then mom gave him a bath because he'd gotten seriously filthy at Uncle Ray's old decrepit dust-filled place (it was ALWAYS like that though, not just since he died... I dunno how he could stand it), and he made me stay near the tub with him and help dry him off and clothe him and stuff. O.o Later on I took a shower, and after I got out he came to the door (which I'd locked, because he likes opening doors now) and we had this conversation... keep in mind that this child is less than 2 1/2 years old...
"Becky!"
"Huh?"
"What are you doing?"
"Washing my hair."
"Oh!... Why?"
"Because."
"Because why?"
"... O_o"
Then he went to report the conversation to Mom, and then he came back and knocked on the door, and this ensued:
"*knock knock*"
"Yeeess?"
"*knock knock* Hey Becky!"
"What, Braeden?"
"I'm knockin'! *knock knock*"
"Yes, I hear you... XD;;"
The kid's a riot.
Anyway, then at some point that evening Mom reported to me that while they were at Uncle Ray's, they asked him if he was daddy's boy, or grandma's boy, or mommy's boy, etc... they ask him that all the time just because it's amusing. Usually he insists that he's mommy's boy and no one else's, but Mom told me that this time he'd turned down mommy and declared himself "Becky's boy." It seriously baffles me how much this child adores me. He sees me the least of all his numerous relatives and extended family, and compared to all them I'm just plain boring. Yet I'm his favorite person. I don't get it.
So yeah, that was fun. Parents took him home finally, and a few minutes later I went on my own to my former high school's graduation ceremony. Partly because it's the first graduation to take place in the new facility, and I'd never been to any events there yet, so I wanted to check it out. But I shouldn't have gone, because various occurrences and encounters caused my good mood to just plummet into nothing, and I spent the rest of the evening being depressed and pathetic and absorbed in self-pity. But I'm not going into that here. If anyone really wants to know, there's a nice long rant in my Livejournal; chances are if you're here you either know where my LJ is or have the info to find it if you want to.
Finally, today has been just a big jumble of everything. Fun times, laughter, pride, sympathy, embarrassment, exclusion, solitude, loneliness, emtpiness, longing, and lots of other things I still can't manage to put a name to. For a few minutes there I almost felt like I mattered, but then I was just another pile of flesh taking up space in a crowded room. In the end I just slipped out without a word. I'm sure no one missed me.
And now I sit here wasting time typing this, when I need to be addressing my graduation announcements before I leave to return to the dorm in a couple hours. And between now and this coming Wednesday I need to type that linguistics paper and find all the sources I'll need for my 13-20 page paper and acompanying 5-7 minute oral defense on Thailand as well as for my 8-page paper for EALL on a topic that hasn't revealed itself to me yet. I'm so, so screwed. But you all knew that already.
I'm starting to think it'll take a miracle for me to actually receive my degree during my gradution ceremony and not the dreaded empty envelope. Either that or it'll take a miracle to keep my body alive and functioning long enough to both pass all my classes AND make it to the ceremony. Someone shoot me.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/23/2004 01:46:00 PM
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wFriday, May 21, 2004 |
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feeling: head hurts, hot, clammy, tired, weak
listening to: Dir en Grey - Taiyou no Ao (Jade Sun)
Oh, you know what else I hate in a professor? When I get up early to go out of my way to meet them in a location in the middle of nowhere that I have to take a bus to, for the purpose of requesting some recommendations and guidance regarding finding sources for a huge project due very soon - and in response all they say is, in effect, "I don't care HOW you go about finding sources as long as you find credible ones."
Talk about helpful. Can I jam this plastic knife into my brain via my ear now?
God, I want sleep...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/21/2004 04:14:00 PM
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wThursday, May 20, 2004 |
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feeling: full (for me)
listening to: nothing
Part Deux.
You know, I HATE classes where the teacher just automatically expects students to have photographic memories for everything he says and puts on the overhead in the way of notes. My int. studies class taught me this weeks ago but I guess I only just realized it this morning. The man puts a transparency COVERED with text on the overhead, talks for about 30 seconds relating to it and about another minute or two relating to completely unrelated topics, and then, when I've just gotten about the first 1/3 of the page reproduced in my notes, he takes it down and moves on to another text-covered slide, repeat, repeat. An even better example: this morning in the middle of lecture he asked "Who's doing their paper on Indonesia?" and this guy raised his hand, so the professor went on, "Well then, here you go. You're all set with this." and puts up a transparency of this chart with GNP (or GDP, or both, or something) figures for Indonesia, with about a dozen columns and 4 or 5 rows, at least. Thirty seconds later he takes the thing down. Yep, I'm sure Indonesia Mike is all set for his 13-20 page paper now that he's had ample time to completely memorize that chart and store it in his memory.
Teachers who think their students should come into their classes already knowing all the material that they came into this class for the purpose of learning drive me insane. I guess I'm fortunate that I've only had 2 or 3 of them in my years here. Most of my teachers lately have been in the Japanese/East Asian language and lit department, and they rock. Best department this university has. :P Have I mentioned I love my major? If I didn't have to take so many stinking general curriculum classes (like international studies, hey hey) college would be a blast.
I usually like Thursdays (after the noon hour at least) because I have nothing important to do. Only one class on Fridays, but it's Japanese, so I don't really consider my Thursday night homework for that as "homework". Just practice. Yeah... not today though. I am screwed beyond salvation if I don't get at least a few things accomplished before today is done. Thinking I can get one of my two 3-5 page linguistics papers done today... maybe find an experiment or talk to attend later today or tomorrow for linguistics, then go to another next week for that beautiful extra credit... oh, I need to clean the tanks today too...
Speaking of the tanks, Phoenix made a bubblenest this week. It's small and misshapen and dippy looking, but it's a bubblenest. He used to have big monster ones going every week in between tank cleanings, and other times he'd make multiple ones in a day... but then he got sick and stopped making them for months. So I was greatly amused by this week's little accomplishment. He's just about back to his old self again.
I thought I had something else to mention... but I can't remember for all I'm worth what it was...
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/20/2004 12:02:00 PM
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wTuesday, May 18, 2004 |
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feeling: defiant (if I don't believe my homework exists, maybe it'll leave me alone...)
listening to: Orange Range - Michi Shirube ~a road home~
My stomach has been doing that thing again. That dull aching thing that's worst when I'm up and/or walking around and seems to go away when I sit or lie down, that plagued me for 4 years until I found out I had an ulcer and went on meds and a diet for a month until it actually went away and left me alone for 5 or 6 full months, convincing me that my stomach problems were actually finally over. Yeah, that thing. It's back. -_- If it gets ANY worse I'm getting more Prevacid. I'm about to face what will be hands down The Most Stressful Three and a Half Weeks of My Life As Of Yet, and I do NOT need to deal with another ulcer in the middle of it all.
Let's see... things I have to do in the next 3.5 weeks...
~Write two 3-5 page papers for linguistics
~Attend a talk or experiment for linguistics, or 2 for extra credit
~Write an 8 page paper for EALL on an as yet unknown topic
~Finish (and start, at that) a problem set for int. studies... a good 2 evenings of work, due in - oh, look, 2 days, how nice
~Write a 13+ page paper on Thailand
~Find sources and do ALL the research necessary for said Thailand paper before writing it
~Prepare and give an oral defense of said paper in front of a panel
~EALL essay final, length and topic and pretty much everything else unknown
~Regular weekly homework - no less than 2 chapters of reading per week for each of 3 classes, plus Japanese practice
And let's not forget that for one of those 3.5 weeks - 6 days to be exact - I will be in California. Life's a real winner, huh?
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/18/2004 06:34:00 PM
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wFriday, May 14, 2004 |
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feeling: ...
listening to: BLOOD - Taiyou ^_^ (translation: Sun)
Guess who'd rather do ANYthing but homework?
What is your name?: Becky Cottrill
Are you named after anyone?: no
What's your screename?: ShivaKat9, plus 3 others only a select few know about
Would you name a child of yours after you?: never
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: that would be up to my parents, no? interesting though... they knew they wanted to name their first child Chris, so if my brother had been a girl he would be Christina... and both of us have male/female versions of the same middle name, Michael/Michelle... ok, I'm done being off topic now
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: a friend? uh... dunno, but I'd gladly take Asai2's middle name
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: yes, only about 2 or 3 people have pronounced my last name right the first time since I started college. accent is on the first syllable, not the last.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: either that or change it, yes.
BASICS
(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: open minded :P
(3) Single?: yep
(4) Want to be?: some days yes, others no
(5) Your birthday: June 23
(6) Age you act: I can act 8, or I can act 80... but most generally I probably act abouuuut... 18 or 19
(7) Age you wish you were: 15
(8) Your height: 5'5"
(9) The color of your eyes: blue, but only my eye doctor can tell :P
(10) Happy with it?: I wish they were bluer... dark blue though, not that uber-sparkly sky blue
(11) The color of your hair: brown
(12) Happy with it?: not really, but given the chance to change it, I don't know what I'd change it to
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(27) Your family: parents, older brother
(29) What's your job: I've said it before, I'll say it again... what job?
(30) Piercings?: one per ear, but I haven't worn earrings in years
(31) Tattoos?: no
(32) Obsessions?: the computer, J-rock/visual kei, wasting time, ice cream, and frozen mocha/latte drinks
(35) Do you speak another language?: nihongo daisuki!
(36) Have a favorite quote?: several, but none actually come to mind
(37) Do you have a webpage?: 3 blogs, a Livejournal, two image-hosting servers, one of which is full... I think that's it
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: no, I'm a child of my past
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: I'm quietly intolerant. on the outside I appear to have infinite patience, but on the inside I'm usually screaming and wishing with all my heart that I could tear their lungs out through their nose and feed them to a pack of wombats.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: why yes, I do
(41) Do you hate yourself?: usually
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: actually I kinda do... except it's too light
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: don't know if it counts as a habit, but I have NO attention span anymore. I'm supposed to be doing 2 weeks worth of backlogged linguistics reading now, but I just read half a chapter and sat down here and started typing this. more... hmm... oh, I always do that leg/foot shaking thing, like people do when they're nervous or have to pee. and I constantly mess with my hair - not out of vanity, just because it's always in my eyes and driving me insane.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: recently, that I've lost so much weight... but that won't last much longer I'm pretty sure =_= *pinches resurrected fat roll*
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: hmm... All Hail Murphy's Law?
(46) What's your biggest fear?: I have some kind of social phobia
(47) Can you sing: when I want to
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no
(49) Are you a loner?: yes
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: no... I'd look upon me with contempt and, like, freaked-out-ness
(52) Are you a daredevil?: *snort*
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: what would I fear about myself? >_o lots of things I hate though... I'm indecisive, useless, lazy, ugly, out of shape, I repel people, I obsess over things until they completely eat me up inside... *yawn*
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: I am neither lover nor fighter
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength? hmm... my guise of patience and endurance, maybe? weakness would be... arg, lots of things
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: I'd be skinny. not sickly-looking toothpick skinny, but skinny enough that NO ONE could honestly call me fat.
(58) There are three wells- love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: what do wells have to do with anything? *shrug* uh... I'd say love, just to torture myself, because it's something I can never have... but then again, so are all of those, but at least beauty and creativity could be worked for...
(59) How do you vent?: blog/LJ
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: no, I'm weak as a blind, deaf, clawless, hairless, toothless kitten
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: I kinda sorta regret giving up on my first real group of friends... if I hadn't been such a brat I wouldn't have distanced myself from them. I also regret not saying what I wanted to say when there was still time (this applies in many situations from my past, so don't worry, I didn't leave you out :p)
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: in all honesty, yes... I'm living, my body is intact and functional, I'm not undergoing any intensive therapy or treatment, I'm about to graduate with honors from an accredited college, I have a place to call home... I lack friends, but I have my own angel... and I'm going to Fanime O.o but yeah, that doesn't mean I like my life... there's a lot going on behind the scenes that no one person knows all details about, and I don't care to go into it... sorry
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: if anything can go wrong, it will
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my eyes, which isn't saying much
(65) And least?: everything else... pointy nose, flabby face, ghost pale skin, fat rolls everywhere you look, no muscletone anywhere, ugly thin-lipped screwy-toothed smile, a couple of *ahemcough*...
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: yes. I am hot. >.> and if you believe I think that after reading the above, I want you to come here and stand in front of my desk so I can drive a plastic spoon into your skull via your eye socket.
(67) Are you confident?: anything but
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: psh, heck if I know
(69) Do people know how you feel?: not usually
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: I think so, yes
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: no
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: no
(74) Pray?: not as often as I should
(75) Go to church?: yeah
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometimes, but it doesn't usually happen
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: they're always nearby, but I don't usually actually, like, cling to them... sometimes, but not frequently
(78) Take walks in the rain?: not when I don't have to
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: not when I can avoid it or get by with a wave, a shrug, and a brief nod of the head, all while avoiding eye contact
(80) Drive?: infrequently, just because I never seem to have anywhere to go
(81) Like to drive fast?: kinda
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: a few times... singing voice, not speaking voice... I hate my speaking voice
(83) Hurt yourself?: not intentionally, but yes, quite a few times
(84) Been out of the country?: no -_-
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: don't think so...
(86) Burped?: Pepsi One is great for burping :P
(87) Been unfaithful?: no, I'm loyal to a fault
(88) Been in love?: yeah
(89) Done drugs?: I like the repetition here...
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: no
(92) Had a surgery?: no
(93) Ran away from home?: almost, once
(94) Played strip poker?: yeah, but we didn't get that far at all :P
(95) Gotten beaten up?: not thoroughly
(97) Been picked on?: constantly, since I was old enough to realize it
(98) Been on stage?: many times, yes
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: ...ok, no part of this question has anything to do with me, except maybe the breath thing :P
(100) Slept outdoors?: yeah, if you count tents
(101) Thought about suicide?: a few times, but I'd never go through with it
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: a few times
(103) If yes, what is your record?: just one night
(104) Gone one day without food?: not completely... when I'm sick I usually eat no more than a couple crackers and a few sips of Sprite in a day, but that's about as far as it goes
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: no, I hate phones
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: nope... that sounds really bad if you read it wrong lol
(107) Slept all day?: no, till 2 p.m. is my record
(108) Killed someone?: no
(109) Made out with a stranger?: no... well... no
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no, and you couldn't pay me to
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: frequently
(112) Kissed the same sex?: nah, but I probably would, under certain circumstances... I don't see the big deal, as long as it doesn't go too far... but I guess everyone has a different definition of 'too far'... and now that I've got everyone thinking I'm batting for the other team, I will shut up now >.>;
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: heh no
(114) Been betrayed?: I don't think so
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yeah, it was freaky
(116) Broken the law?: >.>;; *points to 900+ mp3s on hard drive*
(117) Met a famous person?: umm... kinda?
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: not to my recollection... maybe fish, when I used to go fishing with my dad... but I guess you should expect some fish to die when you intentionally hook the poor things :x
(146) Stolen anything?: nah
(147) Been on radio/TV?: yes, both more than once
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: not unless you count the mass of people in front of Kiwamu's side of the stage at Ohayocon :P he likes to fan-dive lol
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: I don't think so... my body handles that kinda thing in other ways, I guess... the best was the ulcer
(150) Considered religious vocation?: no, I don't think I could stand it
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: can't say I have... I have a perfect record :P
(152) Bungee jumped?: no, but could have... should have... ><
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeah, but no more than a few times
CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: currently Nike
(155) Brand of clothing?: dunno... Levi jeans, Gap is ok...
(156) Cologne/perfume?: don't wear any
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: jeans and a T-shirt or sweater
(159) Wear hats?: no
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: sometime it can't be helped... it sounds stereotypical, but some people go out of their way to advertise themselves...
(161) Wear make-up?: no
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Aquarium Adventure
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: jackets are cool :P
(164) Are you trendy?: God no
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: no, just because most of them tend to be retarded-looking (sorry, I try to avoid using that word in a derogatory sense, but nothing else fit here ><; ). some seifuku are actually pretty decent though
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: you could say that
(167) Miracles?: yeah
(168) Astrology?: no, but it's fun to think about
(169) Magic?: no
(170) God?: yeah
(171) Satan?: yeah
(172) Santa?: no
(173) Ghosts?: the soul, yes... ghosts, no
(174) Luck?: luck? what is luck? that's a funny word if you say it over and over... luck luck luck luck luck luck... >.>
(175) Love at first sight?: no
(176) Yin and Yang?: kinda, yeah
(177) Witches?: not witches as in green warty skin and flying around on brooms... but I've known some Wiccans in my time
(178) Easter bunny?: no
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: no
(181) Do you wish on stars?: I have in the past, but just for the heck of it
LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no... I'm immune at this point
(183) Do you remember your first love?: if you could call it that
(184) Still love him/her?: good question...
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: sometimes, but... eh, no, never mind
(186) What do you find romantic?: a whole frigging lot of things >.>
(187) Turn-on?: smile, eyes, and well formed shoulders :P
(188) Turn-off?: insensitivity, condescending attitude, egotism, excessive jock-ness or geek-ness (though there's a fine line lol)
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: no, I would be a royal hypocrite if I did
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: flattered, but because I'm a selfish stuck up brat, I'd turn them down
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: I'd have to know them
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: I don't care
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: maybe kinda... maybe... but if you're romantically attracted to someone you'll usually find them physically attractive too...
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: no
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: good question... couldn't tell you
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: I feel I've answered this before
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: parents just paid for my flight, hotel, and registration to Fanime as a graduation gift
(208) Are you in love?: no
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: moving right along
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: walk on by... possibly stare a little longer than necessary, but only if they weren't watching
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: *mutters*
(212) You wanted to kill?: I can't wish death on anyone... unfortunately
(213) That you laughed at?: some stupid little idiotic animation in Mynci Beach Volleyball >.>
(214) That laughed at you?: Life laughs at me on a daily basis
(215) That turned you on?: ...mmhmm
(216) You went shopping with?: parents, probably
(217) That broke your heart?: the last person?... couldn't tell you, I stopped keeping track
(218) To disappoint you?: dunno, I'm easy to please
(219) To ask you out?: no one
(220) To make you cry?: I only make myself cry
(221) To brighten up your day?: Kiwamu :3
(222) That you thought about?: I think it was Adion actually lol
(223) You saw a movie with?: myself
(224) You talked to on the phone?: dad and Nephy
(225) You talked to through IM?: Dumplin's friend Jason who I don't really know x_x
(226) You saw?: Meg from the quad next door, probably
(227) You lost?: ...once again, I don't keep track anymore
(229) You thought was completely insane?: dunno
(230) You wanted to be?: just about anyone but myself
(231) You told off?: I don't have the guts to tell people off
(232) You trusted?: Dumplin'
(233) You turned down?: *shrug*
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: see #213, if that counts
(235) Laughed?: >.>;
(236) Cried?: few weeks ago
(237) Bought something?: lunch today, if that counts... but probably not since it's meal plan... parents paid for everything Fanime and my 1st Period Best CD, but only because dad wouldn't let me pay him back 9_9...
(238) Danced?: I did some BLOOD para para this afternoon :3
(239) Were sarcastic?: no, never. (ba-ZING! >.>)
(240) hugged someone: dunno... can't remember if anyone decided to hug me at church last time I was there... sometimes one or two of the old ladies do heh
(241) Talked to an ex?: what ex?
(242) Watched your fave movie?: no fave movie = no answer
(243) Had a nightmare?: few weeks ago
(245) Talked on the phone?: yesterday evening
(246) Listened to the radio?: this morning
(247) Watched TV?: I turned it on for a few minutes about an hour ago, just to wake myself up a little, but didn't really watch... last time I watched was last night, Family Guy... after Futurama... after Whose Line is it Anyway
(248) Went out?: as in outside the building? this morning/afternoon for Japanese class and lunch... gonna go for dinner soon
(249) Helped someone?: *shrug*
(250) Were mean?: dunno... wish someone would tell me...
(251) Sang?: today, very quietly, while listening to BLOOD
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: heh, 3 or 4 years ago
(253) Said "I love you"?: vocally, out loud?... no idea
(254) Missed someone?: every day of my life. more specifically, I missed my nephew yesterday... my parents were watching him yesterday, and dad called and told me Nephy refused to accept that I wasn't at home, that he'd even gone up to my room to find me and still denied that I wasn't there... even after he talked to me on the phone he was convinced that I was there *sigh*
(255) Fought with a family member?: no fights, only arguments... and probably this past Tuesday or Wednesday, though mom was the one who turned it into 'bickering', not me ><
(256) Fought with a friend?: it's been a long time... just because I don't have friends to fight with in the first place
(257) Had a serious conversation?: probably in the past few days
(258) Got drunk?: never
(259) Had sex?: never
1 minute ago: replied to Jason
1 hour ago: started typing this thing out
1 day ago: booking a hotel in Cali
1 year ago: heck if I know... probably in the car going home for a weekend...
I hurt: right now *cracks neck*
I hate: that I have 4 weeks left, but it feels like the same 4 weeks I had left several weeks ago
I fear: that I won't get a good enough grade in one or more classes this quarter to graduate
I hope: nothing goes wrong with my Cali excursion
I feel: tired and stiff and hot
I hide: from the world
I drive: rarely *sigh*
I miss: Nephy, and some other people who know who they are... well, one of them doesn't... :p
I learned: some new Japanese vocabulary today... though I'll forget it as fast as I learned it ><;
I need: to read 4 chapters for linguistics, to do research on mudras (Buddha statue hand gestures), and to go get dinner sometime... all within the span of today. exciting Friday, no?
I think: I'll get a frozen mocha from the Marketplace...
I'm not: a liar
I forget: most things that enter my brain
I imagine: being happy... it's about as close as I can get
I crave: frozen mocha :x
I regret: more things than I care to list here
I care: too much for my own good
I always: screw myself over
I want: to be done with this quarter
I feel alone: every waking moment, and most of the sleeping ones too
I listen: a whole lot better than I talk
I sing: very quietly and very occasionally
I destroy: myself a little more each week
I dance: does para para count? if so, every time I listen to BLOOD lol
I write: in blogs/LJ, and on a few message boards
I wake: countless times every night
I breathe: lately, shallowly... that's not good, is it...
I play: Neopets games >_>
I venture: out of the dorm when I have to
I find: new ways to screw myself over every day
I pray: when life sucks, or when I have something to be thankful for
I kiss: my chances at happiness goodbye
I succeed: um... not frequently
I search: on Google
I learn: Japanese at a less frequent rate than I'd like to :I know: what 2+2 is
I joke: with the few friends and pleasant acquaintances I have online
I say: nothing, if I can help it
I change: never, anymore
I fail: in every relationship I've ever had, one way or another
I dream: some really messed up junk
I believe: that I've wasted enough time typing this... not that that stops me
I wonder: what lengths I'd have to go to to find happiness
I want: my free time back
I worry: constantly... it's genetic
I wish: GEC's weren't required -_-
I fight: ...no I don't
I am: drained
Three things that scare me:
1: any social situation
2: the future
3: failure?
Three people who make me laugh:
1: Dumplin'
2: Willard
3: Adion
Three Things I love:
1: my family - parents, nephew, Dumplin'...
2: my critters
3: my music
Three Things I hate:
1: international studies class
2: my knack for screwing myself over
3: hot weather
Three things I don't understand:
1: why the human race is so moronic
2: anything having to do with China
3: why Japanese isn't the official world language ><
Three things on my desk:
1: Phoenix' tank
2: computer stuff - monitor, keyboard, mouse, speakers, subwoofer
3: pair of nail clippers
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: listening to BLOOD
2: drinking a frozen vanilla latte
3: typing this, foo'
Three things I want to do before I die:
1: go to Japan
2: own a Great Dane
3: know what happiness is like again
Three things I can do:
1: make people feel better about themselves just by being around
2: speak, read, and write more Japanese than the average American
3: draw, I guess
Three ways to describe my personality:
1: asocial
2: introverted
3: loyal to a fault
Three things I can't do:
1: find my inspiration
2: sleep
3: settle
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/14/2004 05:34:00 PM
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wThursday, May 13, 2004 |
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feeling: *shrug*
listening to: BLOOD - Mebious' Loop
Oog. Blogger's gone crazy with the overhaulage again. On the plus side, they finally got some new templates. On the minus side, most of them suck. I believe I'll stick with the one I have.
Oh, and I edited the post about halfway down with the big 200-question survey in it... there was a dire, dire mistake in #130. It said 'math'. >_<
Anyway... it's official. I'm going to Fanime. *runs around in circles* Not only that, I'm going CHEAP. There's no "Gakufest" anymore because they decided to make the concert a regular con event, which means all the performers will still be there, but I don't have to pay for a separate concert ticket. Also, all of the rooms Fanime was allotted for its guest by the 3 hotels surrounding the convention center are booked, which would mean I'd have to pay almost $700 to stay in one of those hotels as a regular visitor (separate from the convention rate). But my momma didn't raise me like dat (sorry, couldn't resist), so I'll be staying in Best Western or some other cheap place like that. It's still within half a mile of the convention, just literally hundreds of dollars cheaper, even if I take a taxi to and from there every day for the whole event. Finally, the round trip flight will cost $274, which is at least $40 less than I expected... not much in the context of a cross-country flight, but still cheap. And best of all, my parents not only agreed, but actually OFFERED to pay for the hotel, registration, and flight as a graduation gift. O_O! So yeah... they'll be spending about $600, which just leaves me with food, cab fare, and spending money. Though they might give me extra for the cab too... not sure...
Of course, all of this doesn't mean I won't come back broke. Between buying loads of J-rock goodies for myself, some souvenirs for Dumplin'-chan who can't go ;_;, and meals, my wallet'll be empty within a day. Guess I should withdraw a bit of cushion from the ol' credit union before I leave...
Wow. I'm outta here in exactly 2 weeks. I still can't belive I'm really going. Nervous? Kinda. I'll be flying with Kristin and Roxanne, and from the stopover in Chicago we fly the rest of the way with Suz-sama too. ^^ And I think someone else is going with Suz... forget who... >_<; Anyway, so the only time I'll really be alone is at night when I go back to my separate hotel for sleep and such... and if I choose to wander around alone at the con itself, which is likely. It's always fun attending events like this with friends, but sometimes interests conflict, y'know? They might want to do one thing I want to do something else, and stuff. I have no problem with checking out some video showings and panels on my own. Only problem with being alone at a con is there's no one to rush me through the dealer's room... so if I end up spending an entire day there, blowing all my savings or just standing there for hours on end gazing upon the incredible h4wtness that is Harry from the Jpophouse booth, I only have myself to blame. :P
And this also means I have 2 weeks to learn all I can about Duel Jewel, another J-rock band that, from what I've seen and heard, is VERY cool. Not as cool as BLOOD, but still worth buying a CD or poster of, surely. Should check out Camino, too... I'd never heard of them before I learned they'd be at Fanime. But I'm NOT going to be completely ignorant about these two bands like I was about BLOOD at Ohayocon. I still wish I'd known enough to sing along with the lyrics, follow all the goofy para para moves, and join in the calling of the band members by name at their concert. And I wish I'd known Takeshi and Taichi better and longer before they disappeared. T_T I still miss them... can't wait to meet Fu-ki and hear his vocal work though.
You know, I wish I had some sort of little gift to give each of the band members. A lot of the girls I'm traveling with are doing that. But I have no idea what to do for any of them... and I don't want to give them the exact same things that they've probably already got hundreds of because the fanbase knows they like them. I have this strange need to be unique. :P So yeah. Sigh. Doubt I can either think of or find anything within 2 weeks...
Ohh, just think how behind I'm gonna be in homework and crap thanks to all this. I honestly don't see much term paper work getting done in between panels, showings, buyings, concerts, and signings. XD
Sorry if I'm rambling. I'm just excited. Yes, this is me when I'm excited. Some people jump up and down and screech and squeal and throw :D:D:D:D:D:D's and O_O's and EEEEEEEEEEEEE's and thousands of !!!!!!!!!!'s into their posts when they're excited. I just ramble. California. Fanime. BLOOD. Duel Jewel. Harry. Buying g00ds. Fandom fandom fandom. Insert miles of !!!!!! here.
And here.
Aaaaannd here.
...ok, I'm finished now. Need to clean the fish tanks. Should've done it 2 days ago, but school + lack of sleep + unbearable heat = Becky can't walk straight or keep her eyes open. It's still 90 degrees in here, but at least I'm running on 7 hours of sleep today.
(edit: the heck? before I published this post Blogger said I had 299 posts here... and after I published it, it says I have 318. Um. >_>;; )
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/13/2004 12:55:00 PM
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wThursday, May 06, 2004 |
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feeling: unnaturally good... which makes me suspicious
listening to: Dir en Grey - Engirys Cimredoyph... yay for Kyo-rap!
Wow. Despite this morning's agonizingly long international studies class, the stupid ab cramps, and the hurty dream I had last night involving hypodermic needles and quite a bit of pain *cringe*, this has been a pretty good day.
First of all, I'm wearing one of those outfits that actually fits and looks fairly good on me. Well, when I suck in my gut, anyway.
Second, I stepped outside this morning and was just shellshocked by how BEAUTIFUL it was out there. The temperature was perfect, sunny, blue sky, few clouds, very light breeze, couldn't have been better. Of course, this was about 9 in the morning, so very soon it will top 80 degrees and thus be too hot. Sigh. But anyway, yeah, so it was a nice walk outside.
Third, while walking past Mirror Lake, I saw for the first time in at least a year our breeding pair of wood ducks. Yay! ^_^ *has missed the pretty birdies* I wonder what became of their little family from last year...
Fourth, I had to stop by the library to print my international studies outline, and for the first time in God knows how long, I had NO trouble. I got in, there was no line for a computer, I sat, I put in the disk and it WORKED, I clicked print, the thing actually accepted the print command on the first try, the print station was working like it's supposed to, the printer was online, I even got it all stapled together. Yatta. :P And all this done in great time, so I actually got to class early for once.
Fifth, my little oral presentation about my Thailand research paper plan went better than I expected. Namely, I expected the professor to jump all over my data and hypotheses and tell me I was all wrong and had to completely rebuild my nexus or something, or to at least ask me buttloads of questions that he knew I wouldn't be able to answer just to make me feel even more in over my head than I already do. But he didn't. He asked maybe two questions, small ones that I was perfectly capable of answering immediately and correctly. Of course, the rest of the 2-hour class was about the most agonizing span of time I've ever had to sit through (just like it is every other Tuesday and Thursday)... but to help kill time, I doodled a little Zomutt head in my notes. I never get to margin doodle anymore. Plus, Zomutts ROCK. I own one. ^^ Happy joy.
Sixth, class ended - a joy in itself - and I walked outside into that beautiful weather again.
Seventh, I got a mochaccino (I defy anyone to spell that better!) smoothie from Mirror Lake and it was SO freaking good. *float*
Eighth, I got home and checked my mailbox, and found an envelope from the Arts and Sciences office containing a pamphlet with full information for graduates and guests regarding spring commencement. It's official - I'm graduating. *_* And of course several things in the pamphlet made me go squee... the fact that I received it, the fact that there's no limit on guests I can invite (so, to anyone who wants to come watch me graduate: come! :D), and most of all, the fact that each college has its graduates wear a different color tassel, and I had a blast reading through the colors. Enjoy it with me:
Graduate School (Ph.D.): grey; others black
Colleges of the Arts and Sciences: white
~College of the Arts (BA, BSID): white; others: brown
~School of Music (BA) white; others: pink
~College of Biological Sciences: white
~College of Humanities: white (that's me~)
~College of Mathematical and Physical Sciences: white
~College of Social and Behavioral Sciences: white
~School of Journalism and Communication (BA): white; (BA Journalism): crimson
~School of Public Policy and Management: peacock blue
Fisher College of Business: drab (I laughed so hard at this XD)
College of Food, Agricultural, and Environmental Sciences: maize (must say that's fitting)
~School of Natural Resources: blue-green (also fitting)
College of Dentistry: lilac (O.o)
College of Education: light blue
College of Engineering: orange
~Austin E. Knowlton School of Architecture: blue-violet (isn't that like blueprint color? booya!)
College of Human Ecology: maroon
Moritz College of Law: purple
College of Medicine and Public Health: green
College of Nursing: apricot (...apricot?)
College of Optometry: sea-foam green (eww! ...pahaha)
College of Pharmacy: olive green (more eww!)
College of Social Work: citron (haha, fancy)
College of Veterinary Medicine: grey
Fun, no? Business grads get drab! *points and laughs*
Anyway... ninth, I just turned on my Dir en Grey playlist. Only 35 tracks... must beef it up... but I'm in a Diru mood. *wiggles foot to the lovely*
And then I started typing this blog. I'm going to treat the majority of the rest of this day as a Friday, because today feels like a Friday for some reason. That means I'm going to screw around and get nothing accomplished, basically. ^^ And later I'm gonna go to the Marketplace and get one of those 5 or 6 remaining entrees I have yet to try that I'm dying to try. Maybe the curry chicken wrap... or classic Reuben panini... man, Marketplace rocks.
*headbangs to Diru*
I'm done for now. It's nice to be able to post a happy rant now and then. Of course, now for the rest of the day I'll be going around with shifty eyes just waiting for life to go horribly wrong. Maybe that lion that broke loose in town a few days ago will find and maul me when I'm en route to the Marketplace... lol, but then again, even that would be pretty darn cool. How many college students and city dwellers can say they were mauled by a lion on their way to pick up dinner? :P
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/06/2004 12:35:00 PM
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wWednesday, May 05, 2004 |
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feeling: hot
listening to: badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger badger... BLAST YOU, WEEBL
I like dreams where I wake up laughing. They're so rare. And yet this week I've already had two of them. Of course, after one of them, I went back to sleep and continued the dream, and the next time I woke up my legs hurt because they'd been attacked by glass shards in the dream... *sigh*
Anywho, the first one was much longer and had many more parts than I will relate here... the funny part involved me at home, in the living room rocking chair on what felt like a natural everyday evening with the parents... Mom was doing something in the kitchen and Dad was falling asleep on the couch while the TV was on but no one was really watching it. But at one point someone (on TV I think) said something, and Dad said something big and long and weird in response... in his sleep. So I gave him a O.o; look and said "I like [insert whatever the heck he'd just been talking about here]..." to which he replied with another big long sentence-shpiel totally unrelated to anything I'd said. By now I was having a blast, holding an involved two-way conversation with my sleeping father, whose responses were very coherent and organized but totally unrelated to the topic, while laughing like mad with my mother in the next room. Woke myself up laughing, went back to sleep, broke something on my dresser in the dream, underwent lots of pain as the shattering glass sprayed my bare legs lodging little shards in me, waking up with little pinpoints of pain scattered about my legs...
Last night's was better, just because it was weirder and made me all giddy for no apparent reason. So in the dream I was attending some special bonus reunion Japanese class or something... I say reunion because some students I haven't seen in a while were there, and our teacher was Terashima-sensei, who in real life had to stop teaching two quarters ago. I miss her. Anyway, in this dream she gave everyone a list of what appeared to be 10 or 12 of the most popular current songs in Japan, along with lyrics, I guess... then she played them all on a karaoke machine and had everyone sing along. One of the songs I swear I've heard before but couldn't put my finger on it and still can't... it was cool... me and Sensei had a little conversation that went something like this, but in Japanese: "Where have I heard this song before?" "This song is actually not very popular in Japan, many people don't like it, but..." "Yeah, I thought that was the case..." and that's all I remember actually, but it was a little longer than that.
Anyway, best part to come. A while later she put on a new song, which I immediately recognized as one of my favorite sappy J-ballads, SMAP - Lion Heart. Upon realizing this I screeched "Uwaaa, daisuki!!" (aaah, I love this song!!). So I'm standing around gleeing, and then when the vocals start, this guy who resembled a guy I had geology class with last quarter *shrug* started singing the first verse alone. And I just stood there flabberghasted at how GOOD he was, and how he sounded EXACTLY like Kimura Takuya (the SMAP member who sings that verse in the song). As if I wasn't crazy enough about that verse to start with... *glomps KimuTaku* But anyway, so he finishes the verse and we all clapped for him, then everyone went back to singing along with the song. Which I adore, in case I haven't mentioned that.
Then there was kinda a jump in the dream, and the next thing I knew the karaoke-fest was over and we were all sitting around socializing in a place that bizarrely resembled my grandparents' garage O_o. For no apparent reason, I decided to start singing O'ha Rock by Shingo Mama, a song which, as anyone who's heard it knows, is the devil. I was about half a verse in when Terashima-sensei noticed my venture, started laughing her head off, and joined me. So while everyone else was socializing and probably thinking we were nuts, there sat Sensei and I, busting our butts laughing while singing together every single verse of O'ha Rock. We even did hand gestures for the "O'haaa!" and "Itadakima~su!" parts. :P So yeah, then I woke up laughing, and with O'ha Rock stuck in my head. But then for the rest of the day Lion Heart was stuck in my head. Good times... lol
Yeah, I doubt anyone thinks any of that last one was amusing at all unless they know the songs. But I wanted to remember it because I like dreams where I wake up laughing, rare as they are.
I'm so not gonna get this international studies outline done. Heh. Ask me how much I care. I have no interest in this class at all, it's totally over my head, it's too much work, I'll never have any use for it, I wouldn't be in it if it wasn't required of me... and to top it off senioritis is eating my brain in a big way. And I have a paper due for EALL on Monday, and by the day after that I'm supposed to turn in a brief project description for the group midterm project due the following week that I don't have a group for yet, and the day after that I have a paper due for linguistics... but that group midterm project is gonna be especially interesting considering I don't have a group and the class won't be meeting again until the day before the brief project description is due. So screwed. I just wanna go home.
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dragged from Becky's stream of consciousness at 5/05/2004 09:53:00 PM
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wSunday, May 02, 2004 |
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feeling: tired
listening to: Day After Tomorrow - My Faith
(edited 5/13 cause I found a dire mistake on #130 ><;;)
1. Your Full name: Rebecca Michelle Cottrill
2. Do you feel like your name fits you?: yep, it's just boring and dumb sounding enough
3. Do you have an alter ego?: lol, last time I counted I had 8... I believe it's gone down though
4. Where were you born? Chillicothe, OH
5. Where do you live?: see above
6. Do you like to travel?: yeah, if only I could actually do it
7. What is your birthday?: June 23
8. Do you have siblings?: one older brother
9. Do you have pets?: dog, 2 cats, 2 bettas
10. Which was the happiest year of your life?: 1998
11. How old do you wish you were?: 15
12. A movie is being made about your life. Who would you cast to play yourself?: I wouldn't even try to torture mankind with a full-length feature about me.
13. Who would you cast to play your significant other?: I'd say 'see above', but the temptation to put Die here is just too strong :P
14. How would this movie end?: it wouldn't.... it would keep on going forever and ever, repeating the same endles cycle of monotony... *ahem*
15. Is it better to be famous or infamous?: famous
16. How will you die naturally? cancer -_-
17. Youre going to die a sudden, tragic death. What is the cause?: plane crash, because I like, never fly. and I should NOT be saying this because there's a chance I might be flying to Cali at the end of the month. T_T
18. How long do you plan on living?: not really something you 'plan', is it?
19. What was the last song you got stuck in your head?: Malice Mizer - Transylvania... makes me wanna bite Gackt on the neck... drink from meee and live forevaaa... <3
20. Sing any commercial jingle: Tofu de tsukuru hambaagu, minasan ni oishiku dekichatta! House Tofu Hambaggu!
21. What is your favourite element on the periodic table?: neon? call me a walking contradiction
22. Sunrise or sunset?: sunset
23. Introvert or extrovert?: introvert
24. Creation or evolution?: I could go into a whole debate here about how there are different degrees of 'evolution' and some I'm all for and some I think are a load of crap... but instead I'll just say God-guided evolution
25. Action or reaction?: for me personally... react
26. Unity or individuality?: you're screwed either way. I try to go for a happy medium, even though I know there's no such thing, so I'm screwed too.
27. Hugs or drugs?: hugs
28. Animal, vegetable, or mineral?: animal
29. Popsicle, Creamsicle, or Fudgesicle?: mmmm, Fudgesicle... *nostalgia*
30. Fight or flight?: me? flight, unless... well... stuff. but generally, flight.
31. Who is your favourite historical figure?: ummm... history sucks
32. What Historical figure could we have done without?: so many, can't choose...
33. What happened in the last dream you remember?: I had a bugbite on my chin :P it was crazy... when I woke up my chin was itchy but there was nothing there lol
34. Do nice guys really finish last?: typically, yes
35. What are your favourite boy names?: this is not something I think about very much... or ever
36. What are your favourite girl names?: see above
37. Open or closed: open. get your mind out of the gutter. :P
38. White bread or wheat bread?: I usually pick wheat, but I prefer white... don't ask why
39. Is it better to burn out than to fade away?: no, fade all the way
40. You put a quarter into a toy machine. What comes out?: one of those little plastic globes with a blob of that slime-gook in it... I love that stuff :P
41. What do you want to be when you grow up?: I don't want to grow up
42. What were your favourite childhood toys?: Barbies, this big baby doll that played music and could close its eyes, and... a little battery powered dump truck >.>
43. What was your first pet?: calico cat, Sissy
44. What annoys you?: pretty much everything. lately, heat, rain, and international studies top the list.
45. What is your favourite action caption from the old 'Batman' tv show?: BIFF!
46. How many licks does it take to get to the centre of a tootsie pop?: who licks a sucker? you suck them, genius :P
47. The glass... half empty or half full?: totally empty
WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON
48. Tightie whities: remind me of old men... >.>;; gimme boxers any day :P
49. Mc Donalds happy meals: sometimes they have amusing toys :3 and I still love those nasty little wannabe-meat Chicken McNuggets
50. Reality shows: pointless, idiotic, way overrated
51. Gummi bears or gummi worms?: worms cause they stretch better~
52. Would you rather sky dive or deep sea dive?: both, but... deep sea dive, I guess
53. Paper or plastic?: if we're talking shopping bags, then plastic... paper tears too easy
54. What position do you sleep in?: either on one side curled up, or kinda mostly on my stomach with one leg bent and my head turned to one side or the other depending which side of my nose is clogged up. I can't lay on one side for very long before that side gets stuffy and I have to turn over to breathe. -_-
55. Do you sleep on the left, right, or the middle of the bed?: generally middle... sometimes closer to the wall (which is the right)
56. Sweet or sour?: sweet
57. What was your favourite after school special?: hmm... none come to mind
58. What is your favourite word?: I have lots... check my subprofile for a few examples :P
59. Beach or mountains?: depends... um... mountains I guess
60. Mounds or almond joy?: Almond Joy
61. Do YOU feel like a nut?: sometimes... :p
62. To give or to recieve?: *ahem*...I'll go with giving today
63. Chocolate or caramel?: lately, caramel
64. Do you have any nicknames?: Dumplin' calls me Sempai
65. What does your name mean?: "bound" -_-
66. Have you ever fainted?: nope
67. Have you ever had a crush on a school teacher?: not a serious one heh
68. What was the last thing you ate?: Moose Tracks ice cream with caramel sauce *float*
69. Do you have any bad habits?: I take things too seriously... yes there are others, no I don't feel like listing them
WORD ASSOCIATION
what is the first thing that comes to mind when you hear...
70. Grey: Diru! <3
71. Human: nature... *shrug*
72. Fruit loop: that toucan
73. Glove: Michael :P touch the sky!
74. Plum: Umeten... if you get that, I commend you :P
75. Structure: sentence... ><
76. Race: human
77. Heart: weak
78. Parasite: Eve
79. What was your first happy memory?: I really can't remember... sneaking out and going to grandma's house for Fudgesicles, maybe...
80. What was your first unhappy memory?: my dad spanking me and making me spend a beautiful Sunday afternoon, when we had all just put up a new slide/swingset/monkeybar thingy, alone in my room at age 4 or so ;-;
81. If you could visit any time period, what would it be?: immediate post-apocalypse
82. What would jesus do?: that saying was designed to depend on the situation...
83. Make up a word and define it: make me :p
84. Favourite kool aid flavour?: red. any red. because red stains BAD when spilled, so red Kool-aid was always like, the forbidden ambrosia in our family :P
85. Favourite pick up line?: "Did it hurt?" ... "Did what hurt?" ... "When you fell from heaven?" ...just because that amuses me for some stupid reason :P
86. Who was the third gunman on the grassy knoll?: I won't even pretend to know
87. What did you like to make believe as a child?: that... um... that I was a little singer, maybe
88. Did you have an immaginary friend?: yeah, many :P
89. Would you like to live in a castle or a mansion?: mansion
90. Re-arrange some of the letters in your first, middle, and last name to form a description of yourself: you think I have the time to d... er, not time... the umm, unapatheticness to... do... never mind -_-;
91. Do it fast or do it right?: do it right
92.What was the last book you read?: probably The Hobbit, a year and a half ago. >.> the last book I read from was my linguistics text, Words and Rules by Pinker... thrilling, no?
93. Have you ever had surgery?: nope
94. Random fact about you: I want to hug Sakaguchi Kenji
95. What is the first thing you wash in the shower?: the face
96. What is your favourite cereal?: I guess Oreo O's with 'shmallows... they're as fun to snack on as they are to eat for breakfast
97. If you could learn any foreign language, what would it be?: Japanese :P
98. If you had the choice to live forever, would you?: only if the aging process had no effect... and even then, I'm not sure, because everyone I'd ever grow to love would die, and I suppose that would get pretty depressing...
99. If you had the choice to be the opposite sex for a day, would you?: heck yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
100. Fate?: not exactly
101. Ghosts?: the soul, yes... ghosts, no
102. God?: yep
103. Big foot?: no
104. Soul mates?: not really... at least I don't believe any two random people on this earth were born predestined for each other... two people can discover each other and kinda meld together into one kinda joint soul, but it's not a fate thing
105.Aliens?: I think this universe is way too huge to have only one planet supporting ANY kind of life
106.Angels?: yeah
107. Loch ness monster?: no
108. Heaven and hell?: yep
109. The Zodiac?: no
110. Love at first sight?: no
111. Karma?: not really, but I like to think about it
112.Vampires?: I wish :P~
113. If you had any super power, what would it be?: flight
114. Would you use your power for good or evil?: good
115. Name something nostalgic: butter and lettuce sandwiches, made with fresh leaf lettuce from grandma's garden... man... I still love those
116. What are your turn ons in the opposite sex?: I look at the eyes and smile first... and well formed shoulders :P personality-wise, uh... depends on the guy... good starters are a sense of humor mixed with a sense of seriousness, sensitivity to what's going on with the people around him, and just wanting to be there
117. What are your turn offs in the opposite sex?: self-centered, over-athletic, over-geekish (there's a fine line :p), completely unconcerned and/or oblivious to those around, condescending, etc...
118. What was the best compliment ever given to you?: Kiwamu-san telling me my Japanese is very good x__x
119. Which character from Scooby Doo do you most relate to?: I never liked Scooby Doo
120. What is the worst trend of the present time?: I make it a point to completely avoid trends... I don't even want to know what they are...
121. Beer or wine?: neither, but given the choice I'd say wine
123. You cant sleep?: true
124. Do you wear jewlery?: only my alumni ring
125. What is your favourite smell?: geez... desserts being cooked? >.>
126. What was the best decade of the past century?: don't know, I only lived through one and a half
127. Which is your favourite month of the year?: December
128. Do you smoke?: no
129. Do you drink?: no
130. What was your favourite subject in school?: in high school, art and English... and band until McMullen came in and destroyed it =_= and in college, Japanese (all 3 years of it), and that mythology class I took my first quarter here was sweet too
131. What was your worst subject in school?: math and the social sciences, history, that kinda thing
132. If you had to give up one of your senses, what would it be?: I guess taste... lately food is harder and harder to enjoy anyway
133. Do you follow your head, your heart, or your crotch?: the heart tries, but the head usually overpowers it... after a looooong agonizing struggle
134. Do you truely know who you are?: no, and I don't expect I ever will
135. Are you superstitious?: not on purpose
136. Are you sentimental?: overly
137. How many times a day do you eat?: 2, 3 at the most
138. Are you more of a main idea or detail type of person?: usually detail... to the point of anal... but sometimes I'm fine with just getting the point across
139. What is your favourite pie?: I like just about any pie :P
140. Have you ever been close to death?: maybe once or twice
141. Do you like roller coasters?: yes!
142. Apples or oranges?: apples... oranges are all acid-y... *burn*
143. Are you hyperactive?: when I'm really, really, really tired
144. Do you talk in your sleep?: according to my dad I did once, but other than that, no one's ever in the same room to hear me and report it :P
145. What is your favourite holiday?: Christmas... which isn't saying much these days
146. Do you go to church?: yeah
147. At what age do you think you will be married?: is never an age?
148. If you could open up your own business, what would it be?: hmm... like... I dunno
149. What was the name of your first crush?: Josh
150. What is your weakness?: cuddle :P don't ask
151. What was the last movie you saw that made you cry?: maybe My Girl lol
152. If love were a flavour, which flavour would it be?: caramel... sweet but tangy, smooth but sticks to you like nobody's business
153. If hate were a flavour, which flavour would it be?: I don't think there's anything in this world that tastes that bad...
154. Have you ever been prescribed any drugs?: yes
155. Is lying sometimes necessary?: I don't think so
156. Bubbleyum or bubblicious?: whichever one makes the nifty cotton candy
157. What is your favourite curse word?: biscuit :P
158. Do you have any birthmarks?: yeah, big ugly mole on my back
159. If you could visit anywhere in the US, where would it be?: wow... um, somewhere in California probably... Little Tokyo perhaps :P
160. If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would it be?: Japan, foo'
162. Do you feel like your physical self matches your personality?: in ways, yeah, I guess...
163. What was the name of your kindergarten teacher?: Mrs. White
164. Do you wear glasses or contacts?: contacts
165. How tall are you?: 5'5"ish
166. How tall would you like to be?: doesn't really matter
167. Your current mood: tired
168. Do you dress up for halloween?: no
169. Have you ever been in a car accident?: small ones, nothing where anyone was hurt
170. What is your favourite lucky charm?: don't seem to have one
171. What colour of underwear are you wearing?: white
172. Do you tend to date people younger or older than you?: what is 'date'?
173. Do your exes look alike?: 'ex' you say?
174. Do your exes act alike?: see above
175. Have you ever been in love?: yeah
176. What is your favourite kids movie?: Lion King, if you'd call it a kid's movie
177. Have you ever hallucinated?: I don't think so
178. What do you like most about the opposite sex?: couldn't tell you...
179. What do you hate most about the opposite sex?: they just don't realize how insensitive they are... then there's the one track mind thing... many other things...
180. Have you ever been on a blind date?: no
181. Would you want to be cloned?: no
182. Have you ever peed in public?: no
183. Are you an optimist or a pessimist?: both when I want to be
184. How did you find out that there was no santa clause?: I just grew out of it
185. Pancakes or waffles?: waffles, maybe... especially Belgian waffles a la mode <3
186. Are you on a diet?: not officially, but I think I'm eating slightly better than I was, and maybe less
187. Why is the grass always greener on the other side?: because you get accustomed to having something the same way day after day after day, and you get so tired of the monotony that anything else looks appealing
188. Do you always want what you cant have?: usually
189. Do you act stupid around someone you have a crush on?: I probably did if/when I had any 'crushes'
190. Have you ever been arrested?: no
191. Can you cook?: I just don't want to
192. Do you think its wrong/weird if a girl asks a guy out?: why should it be?
93. Do you have any allergies?: not unless you count bugbites
194. Ketchup or catsup?: ketchup
195. Do you believe there is a meaning to life?: yeah, but I couldn't tell you what the heck it is
196. What do you think about before you fall asleep?: something, usually not actually a real thing/event, that makes me happy, even if only superficially, to kinda tune out all the stress and pain of everything else
197.What are your thoughts on the nature of good and evil?: lol I could debate with Fu-ki on that :3~ I think babies are born neutral... they're animals, and obviously kids are self-centered and need lots of discipline to grow up right, but it's really not their fault, and newborn children are sinless... so yeah, anyway
198. Step into your cave. There you will find your power animal. What kind of animal is it?: meh... snow leopard or something not-too-overwhelming like that
199.What does your power animal say to you?: meow
200. End this survey with a quote: Imi no nai jinsei nante nai yo. (there's no such thing as a meaningless life) *shnugs Hachi*
Sorry, sometimes I need to punish myself a little.
Reiko-chan got me into Duel Jewel. XP *drools over the pretty* They'll be at Gakufest... pleeeease oooohhh pleeeeeease let me be able to go...
(edit: yes, this thing is more than likely crammed with typos. deal with it. I was tired.)
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